Sunday, November 11, 2007

MST

WAs i missing again?
Yeah that was how long my internet/SCV was temporary terminated.
I got it back on my bdae(7-11 is a store and more)
ANd now online like crazy again.


But bad time really.
Starting tomorrow,
Mid-Semester test.
Till friday.
Which means have to mug again.
And i only am ready for tomorrow's paper.


21 January start of Exams.
THen WOOHOO!
END OF POLY.


But i'll need to defer my NS for 9 months.
COz in that 9 months, i'll have to sail for 6 months.
Yeah as a Marine Engineer.
When i say sail, not sailboat, SHIP!
YEah..
Prolly sail with Petorships again.
Wee.. Got income$$$!
Then go NS.


Yeah..
So far thats my plan.
So now need to study well and make sure i graduate.
Peace out.

|[ el mariachi | 9:53:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Starting over

Lost touch for quite awhile.. and now i am back in action..
Just a SHORT summary of what's happened..


- Attachment is obviously over...sailed to Port Dickson, Malaysia with Petro Combo,Chemical carrier.
- Had a relationship and it ended.
- My band was given a new name, ROMANIS. played Indonesian JazzRock.
- My band performed a Mini-Gig in SP FC1
- My band got a new vocalist, Joined a competition with a CC and won 4th place.
- My band was disbanded on 24th Sept (yesterday)
- A semester of school ended leaving me with one more to go.
- Joined a drama GEMS i never regret taking.
- Met new friends i never regret knowing.
- my Grandpa passed away.


Ok tell you wat... F'ck the past..
Lets talk about the present and the future.


I've got a drama showcase next week and i cant wait for it to happen.
This post is to say I AM BACK!


ps. I am so not ready for school i didnt go for my first day today.
But chilled out with Insyirah,Hajar,Faizal,Luqman,Haikal,Sadiq,hilmi and Bakar for break-fast.


Until next post..

|[ el mariachi | 1:39:00 AM ]|

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

attachment and walking form east coast to sumwhere u wont imagine.

Attached to Petroships Pte Ltd.
Having my attachment.
While waiting for my ship, I am working at the Company's Workshop, Merteks Pte Ltd.
This company is doing all the repair works for Petroships' ships.
A total of 10 ships and one under construction.
I wonder which tanker will i be going onboard.


Well, I may be off to sail anytime now as Petroship said they'd gimme a 1-day notice call after the chinese New year.
I do not have any idea how it would turn out onboard.
Hoping for the best.
A good experience i guess.


Working at Merteks is great.
Get to see and help repair, overhaul and even make new things for the ships.
Been quite busy, started on the 13th.
But last friday (16th),
We had this small gathering with about 100 KFC chicken and 6 Large Pizzas.
WIne, Vodka, Xo...plenty
Nah i don't drink.
They tried to force me. 16 against 1.. But i won, didnt even touch the liquors.


Those experimental curious and naive days are over.
I vow not to drink alcohol based drinks ever again.
Won't say no to cigarettes though.
But i'll stop smoking in 9 years time(before marriage:p)


ANd yeah.. Had a mignight jamming on sunday night or should i say monday morning,
From 0000hrs - 0300hrs.
3 hours!
ard $60
and and.. after that, we went to East Coast.
FAizal's auntie fetched us from Raffles Place.
Played soccer and slacked.
And and and and...
We had to go off on our own.
At around 830am.
We were at Area G, someplace i am not familiar with.
We just took a rick and tried to walk to the nearest bustop.
After 30mins of walking nowhere, FAizal remembered he had a street directory and then..............................
We were freaking shock to realise..
We were going nowhere towards a jucntion were ECP Expressway and Xinlin Flyover was.
And there's no way we wanna go back coz its so far away.
We tried getting a lift but no vehicle was willing to take us.
Prabably after seeing hilmi's size.
With our guitars.. We were damn tired.
For the whole night havent slept.
Jamming,played soccer,.
Exhausted.
We stopped a cyclist and asked for directions.
Walked for another 35 mins and reached a bustop.
Shockingly..
Hafiz fouund this box of ration.
One ontop of the other.
The lower one had red ants covering the rice and all.
But the top one. HAD SIX PACKETS of food. With a Halal symbol and spoon.
Not even an ant was there. We smelled the food and its not even spoiled.
It was such a coincidence as there were six of us and there were six packet of food.
But... we didnt eat.
We walked down a bit up and found EXPO MRT STATION.
Can you imagine we walked from East Coast Beach to EXPO MRT STATION!>?>?!>!
good experience.


Now, if anyone asks me how to go to East Coast Beach, I'll say, alight at Expo and walk for about one hour:p

|[ el mariachi | 5:51:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

DEath of a friend i met today.

I was hoping to have fun at sentosa.
But things didnt turn out well.


We arrived, unpack our stuffs,
And dip ourselves in the cool sea.
Then went to shore to kick the ball.



There were these group of gentleman who wanted to join us.
And so we made new friends and played with them.
Had a couple of chats and jokes..
Until a point of time when we kicked too far and the ball went into the sea.
And so Naim and Astro went to take it.
At the same time, One of the gentleman entered the water.
We then carried on playing soccer not realising a tragedy was about to happen.



About half an hour later, one of the gentleman's friend realise he was missing.
A Caucasian tourist nearby said he saw someone dive in the water but did not appear.
And So they informed the lifeguard on duty.



"Oh the guy just went pass me. I didnt see anyone in the water struggling"



FIRSTLY
THERE MIGHT BE A POSSIBILITY OF SOMEONE DROWNING
SECONDLY
THE LIFEGUARD SHOULD NOT HAVE ASSUMED THAT THE MAN WAS THE CORRECT MAN
i mean how the fuck would he know if it's the right person.
The lifeguard was so stubborn, he didnt do anything.



So we went to search.
Also in our mind, we were thinking,
"Maybe he got out of the water already and is walking around. Lets just wait for him to comeback"



We waited for hours.
his friends even walked to the next beaches searching for him.
But to no avail.



Kim was in his late fourties, a Malaysian, Singapore PR,
Has 3 children, eldest aged 13.
It was his first time at Sentosa according to his friends.
There were all SUpervisors from an LCD Production company.
His wife had never worked before and w/o him,
it means alot of suffering.



At ard 430pm, almost 3 hours after he was missing, Out of the sea, suddenly a body was washed ashore.



Resuscitation was applied and he was brought to the Beach Patrol's room.
He was alive. No breathing but he had a pulse.
According to his friends, Foam and bubbles was coming out of his mouth.
30 mins later the ambulance arrived.
He was rushed to SGH.
However, upon reaching to the hospital, he passed away.
( accoriding to Sat's Sis who is a nurse in SGH. )



After all this, i've only got the lifeguard to blame.
They could have done something.
At least conduct a search.
But no.. there were just lazy and could even assume the man passed by them.
After all these had happened, then one of the lifeguards went around asking questions.
WTF?



A friend i met today died.
Imagine the feeling of his friends to break the news to his wife.
How is his children gonna live w/o a father.
Its not easy.



The lifeguard could have done something.
If he was discovered earlier, It would hhave made a lot of difference.
As u see, Our brain needs oxygen.
3-7 minutes w/o oxygen and the brain will disfunction.
Imagine spending 3 hrs under water.
Even if he survives, he might suffer from brain damage.
If only the lifeguards did sth,.
WE tried but we were not equipped with good equipments.
What the hell are they paid for?



I am not gonna trust Sentosa's Lifeguard ever again.

|[ el mariachi | 1:55:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Happy Birthday Naseha!

Jeng Jeng Jeng..
And a year past.
I'd like to highlight something,
ALthough we stay near to each other and all.
We NEVER accidentally BUMPED onto each other..
Not even Once!
haha.. like you said, maybe we should.
Maybe we'll bump onto each other unexpectedly.
:p
Or


Perhaps we don't recognize each other anymore?
hahahaha!
Time flies and who knows we cant recognize each other..


ANyways, No matter what happens,
We're still friends rite?
:p
And so, to a friend of mine,
HAPPY 17th Bday!
Wow, seemed like ydae i wished u ur 16th bdae.
haha! So fast.
And yeah.. Email.. Check them.:p
So long!

|[ el mariachi | 10:55:00 AM ]|

Monday, January 22, 2007

Happy BDae Al-Afiq

Though not my only sibling,
He's My only brother.
Taller than me,
Has a fair skin,
But is younger than me.
Not by a year or two,
BY 4 YEARS +!


Well, Today U'd be 14!
TIme shoots like stars.
Secondary 2 already.
I didnt expect you to be this big now.


Anyway dear, U've been a great brother.
We've had many secrets together.
Although we always have conflicts,
We're still close as can be.


Work hard Study Smart
With determination u can get what you want.
Dont forget to have fun but not too much.
Enjoy while your young but do not take the wrong steps.
Your old enuf to make decisions but dont be naive.


Happy Birthday Brother,
Learn and ENjoy

|[ el mariachi | 11:02:00 AM ]|

Sunday, January 21, 2007

sailing

Tests coming up in a few more days.
Yet i havent even started revising. Slacking too much playing too much.
Exams just next week. I cant wait for it to end. Just 3 papers this Semester. Not much worries as this time round, we paid close attention and i didnt flung my tests. What comes after the exams is what i am rather excited for.


Attachment.
Initially, when i found out i am attached to this company, I thought it was just normal. My other friends are attached to Keppel Shipyard and some other land-based companies. I wasnt worried.


BUT! Later on i was told that my company is a sailing company.
Which means, I will be sailing.
Where? i dunno yet.. I'll find out soon.
But, Its like, Away from friends and families for so long.
And the worst thing is, Its a minimum of 1 month.
The maximum? 2 months.
Not so bad.


This will be the first time, i'll be away from home that long.
Even my camps in NCC didnt drag till a month.
And i aint going for a holiday, I'll be working.
Attachment.
ANd i'll get paid of course.


I am so gonna miss my friends and her.
And family of course.


May i have a safe journey to and fro,
The weather is bad nowadays..


Until next time.

|[ el mariachi | 11:17:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY FAIZAL!

HAPPY 19th BDAE FAIZAL ( and Shahida)
Well Faizal..
When i was just about to enjoy my 18th year in life,
You've already entered your 19th.
I cannot help it but to highlight how fast time passed.
I can still recall the times we were being koinki together.
And now we are all in different separate schools,
leading our separate lives.
May whatever you dream of be realised and may all problems deter from you,
(unless you create yourself)
a talented drummer and a sincere lover.
If only she knew about this.
well.. If ONLY! Maybe if GOD's Willing, One day she will realise all these.
Let's just hope she is not influenced. And lets hope she trusts you.
Until Next time.
azim

|[ el mariachi | 12:34:00 AM ]|

Monday, January 01, 2007

2oo7

2007!

Well well..
How do i start.
Hmm.
I MISS 2006
especially twenty-o-six twenty-o-six
and also... 09 12 06
and every other day..


Thank you everyone who made me smiled.
and and...
I really hope this new year will mean alot to me..
coz... 2+0+0+7 = 9!
hahahaha...


hey... What do you say when u go to a barber?
I remember a barber saying this..
"want to cut short?"
and i replied,
"Of course lah short.. then want to cut long ?"


and have you ordered this..
"Ice Kachang dun want kachang"
"Ice Milo no ice"
Cheeseburger no cheese"


Have u ever seen a blind man who was brought to the police station as a witness and told the police this, " I saw the Robber wearing a blue t-shirt and dark blue jeans.. He was smiling when he robbed the bank. He was carrying a Brown Bag. He seems to be in his twenties and has a moustache. His hair was green"


KK..
Thats all ah..
I'll miss 2006.
and last but not least...
My band's FIRST ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!

|[ el mariachi | 11:29:00 PM ]|

Monday, December 25, 2006

My Band..

22nd Of December...
3rd Jamming Session playing Indon hits..
Unbelievably exciting.
I used to recall the times years ago..
I thought that it was nearly impossible to play these songs as a band.
I used to think only the basic were possible..
The simple chords.. with an acoustic guitar.. just play for fun..
But now....


The effects, gadgets.. drums.. bass... keyboard... alll playing together in harmony..
Never expected us to get this far..
ALthough we are still beginners.. especially hilmi.. its still perfectly nice.


From Oasis... to Indon.. FAr transition... but Indon's our main interest..
DEwa, Padi, Gigi, Sheila On 7, Peterpan....


I hope we can go far..
Well..
THis January 1 will be my parents 19 Annivesary and My bands first anniversary..


CAnt wait to do stupid things on New Year's Eve.. huahua..


ANyway...
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO MY CHRISTIAN FRIENDS AND ALL!

|[ el mariachi | 6:59:00 PM ]|

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Highlights of the week

Last week was memorable..
these are the higlights..


Saturday 09-dec
Met my princess..
East coast Park.
Finally been to a beach with the one i love.
Had a memorable priceless time.
Gave her a gift i made with her name on it.
Ate on the bus on our way home.
Sent her home to her grandma's house.



Monday 11-dec
Promoted to S/CLT.
FInally after 2 years of waiting.



Tuesday 12 Dec
52nd CLT POP
Cool but quite sad as i didnt know majority of the Sea new intake.
Then after that met my princess again.. and walked her home..
yeah walk.
no train.
Then I remember Hilmi Faizal and Fezz was stuck at Wdlds CC 2nd Level when all the stairs are locked.
had to "rescue" them,
Well, managed to get hilmi to climb down..
That was the only problem as the other two can climb down easily.



Wednesday 13 Dec
Met the band.
Played Poker and Hilmi lost all the way.
At first we fixed the cards.. but after that..
He is born a loser.. and so he loses all.
Lol.. joking.. he's just unlucky.
Than made him do stupid Forfeits..
Like crawling in public..
Jumping around.
Take off his shirt and run like tarzan.
With his 120 kilo body..
in public.. FUNNY LIKE HELL!



Thursday 14 DEC
2nd Jamming Session playing Indon Songs.
We can play like 10 songs.. and played lots of unpracticed songs on the spot coz we had extra time.
Finally, we are moving ahead with the band.
Except, we need a full-time vocalist.
Then played cards again behind the MRT stn.
And as usual, hilmi keep losing again, doing all the forfeits.



Friday 15 DEC
CLT NITE.
Well before that..
Had school in the morning.
Met her again at ard 2pm.
Spent priceless time again and rushed back to HQ for the CLT NITE.
Sorry Azril for being Late.
Well, performed 3 songs with Ameer and Taufique.
Chasing Cars, Mungkin Nanti and When You Say Nothing At All.
Highliting Taufique's vocals, we did well.
The the DANCE!
SUPER_DOOPER LIKE DISCO!
the lightings, the songs and the enthusiastic dancers.
Couples were forming everywhere.
Lol, boy do i envy them.
Everyone had fun.
then after that, thon at esplanade and Merlion Park with a few from the NCC family and from other districts..
Memory,,
And guess what..
I saw a shooting star..
Cool.
Just hope my wish will come true,.
Went to Suntec MacDee in the morning and went straight home.



Sunday ( today )
Played soccer at BLOCK 34A MultiStorey Carpark.
Cool place.
Went up till there were no cars.
Played 'Street' Soccer there.
Went home just a while ago.. with bruises






I am missing sum1 badly,.
Shouldnt have msged her so harsh be4 she went off.
Well, She'll be back on tuesday.
May she have a wonderful time with her siblings.



Here's another 9 special
I am 18 and she is 15. We are 3 years apart
1+8 = 1+5+3 = 9

|[ el mariachi | 11:36:00 PM ]|

Monday, December 11, 2006

Ronan Keating:When you say nothing at all

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing


The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all


All day long I can hear people talking out loud (oh…)
But when you hold me near (oh, hold me near)
You drown out the crowd (drown out crowd)
Try as they may, they can never defy
What's been said between your heart and mine


The smile on your face let me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all…oh


Oh, the smile on your face let's I know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all


You say it best, when you say nothing at all
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
(The smile on your face)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
(The truth in your eyes)
(The touch of your hand)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
(Let me know that you need me)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)

|[ el mariachi | 8:09:00 PM ]|

Saturday, December 09, 2006

09 12 06

09 = 1+2 + 0+6

cool eh?
nah.. not so..
to me.. that day itself is cool..
(actually under the sun quite hot)


How do i start..
.....
9am met.
9pm went home.
9 Dec 06.


I dunno where to start...
Simply say.. i went out with sum1... sum1 verrrrrrrrry speciAL...
and the time i spent with her is priceless..
Never felt so great in my whole life.
I would never forget this day.


Everything didnt go as planned..
But the outcome was way way way much much much better.
Instead of doing something like bowl or cycle..
We did nothing but everything that made us happy.


Arghh.. i am ccrazy.. Cant get her out of my mind..
No matter what i do she's always in my mind..
Oh GOD!
I can still feel the magic...
That wonderful feeling i Never Felt Before..
hey hey hey.. one more cool fact ..
in 9 years i'm getting married..
lol..
kk.. kidding but i do hope so..
:p

|[ el mariachi | 9:00:00 PM ]|

Sunday, December 03, 2006

move on with life and love

an article i got from the net ( i edited to suit it to our context)




Some relationships may not end as long as we expect.
Once again, we must force ourselves back out there to find that special, unique person with whom to share our love and our life.






Some of us have no problem returning to the dating scene. We feel it is like riding a bicycle: we never forget how to do it. Others, though, are left with unresolved hurts: self esteem issues and traumas from past relationships. Many feel, based on past experiences, that it is just not worth the effort: they are prepared to go it alone. Some may find themselves suddenly and surprisingly single, after having been in a very long-term relationship. Today it is not uncommon to find people single again after 10 - 25 years of being in a loving relationship.






These are some excuses of why they are not dating and trying to meet the one for them :

• I will never love again; my ex was the only one for me.
• I do not know how to do this dating thing.
• I have trouble meeting people.
• I have no time.
• I will never trust someone again.
• I am not capable of loving.
• I need to concentrate on my studies
  
  
  
  
  
  
  These are just a few of the excuses that come to my mind, right now. Excuses that prevent people from re-entering the dating scene. One thing, though, I have learned in my life: life just is not as much fun when you are alone.
  
  
  
  
  
  
  At some point, after getting over the hurt from the last relationship and dealing with any past emotional baggage, you need to get back into the road again.
  
  
  
  
  
  
  Dating and meeting new people should be a fun experience not a fearful one. Sure, we all have had the date from hell, but I am sure the nice experiences outweigh the occasional bad ones. In order to get back to dating, you have to remove your fears. This is your key to successfully making dating a fun experience. Should you have difficulties with your fears associated with dating, I would advise that you seek the counsel of a good friend who might have gone through the same thing, or consult a professional to help you overcome your fears. Overcoming fears requires work. So get out there, get the help, read the books, and search the Internet.
  
  

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Time cease to stop

I realise its been almost a month since i post an entry in my blog.
why?
I dunno.. Exams? maybe..
Its just that i am always occupied and i rarely log in the And at one point where my internet was down.




Well, I am always occupied with school, My band, Her, my guitar, and my Hp.
I dun feel the joy of getting on the net anymore.
Except when sum1 special or close is online then i'll value the time.



Things have changed. Might not be alot but still it does.
I am no longer an active NCC CLT.
And Lange, I'm sorry i didnt attend the bbq last night.
It was time crisis.
And to Riverside Secondary, Sorry for not attending the annual camp.



What happen in the past month?
Nothing significant that i can think of.
But i can say i've broken the record on the longest phone call i had with anyone.
Hmm.. and ya.. nowadays i keep having late night conversations again.
I miss those times when Me, Ridzman, Masturah, Tasha, Hassan, Iffah and whoever else keep talking on the phone till 2 3 am.
Almost everyday.
Memories.
Times have changed Things have changed, just like what i mentioned earlier.



I just dun feel myself lately. I talk less, I eat more, I sleep less, I go out more.



And its like so fast december..
A few more weeks January 2007.
Time is still flying after 18 years of living:p

|[ el mariachi | 9:15:00 PM ]|

Thursday, November 09, 2006

09 11 2006

I have a keyboard and 2 electric guitars in my home!
And tonights the session!


Hmm.. Today is wonderful!
Went out at 1 came back at 5 but the hours in between meant alot.
Did nothing much but talk and talk.
And yeah! I got my bdae present from sum1 i least expect!
And a souvenir too!
Apart from the card which was mailed to me on 2nd November,
2 days after she left for her trip to Beijing.
It was surprising!


After so long we met again!
and i love the gift!
I cant believe it was handmade for me.
Thanks again!

|[ el mariachi | 7:46:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Happy Bdae Azim!

Thank you all that remembered.
But bdaes are just ordinary days for me.


Except this year.. I AM 18!!!
Finally Legalised!


And thanks again for those who called and msged and those i met for filling my day.


Thanks afiq and nana


Thanks mama and papa


Terima kasih nenek!

|[ el mariachi | 12:00:00 AM ]|

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Happy Bdae Sat

!
So far i think ur the only poly friend which i meet the most in and out of poly.
Thanks for everything.
Thanks for being there.
May u enjoy a blessed bdae!
Dun get into a fight k?
hahahahahaha
Yeah Sat!
C'mon Cam!
Satur`----Dei!

|[ el mariachi | 9:46:00 AM ]|

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Happy Bdae MAMA!

Words cant describe how much i love u.
I never told you i did,
But deep inside, Ur the best mom ever and I LOVE YOU!

|[ el mariachi | 12:00:00 AM ]|

Sunday, October 29, 2006

KKKKKK

Friday night...
met my Band members, excluding Camok.
Had a decent session with bakar..
However, although Hafiz as there, he didnt join in the session, he was bz sleeping.
Azfar and Sat also joined us thru the night.
Hill was our location.


Saturday morning,
Didnt get to sleep at all,
Visitors came.
Talked on the phone with u-dunno-who.


5am sunday morning.
Finally feel my bed.
7am...Woken up by mom to get ready to go out.
2 hrs for 3 days..
Now.
1045 sunday night..
Still not asleep.
Just got back home.
Not sleepy at all.
But my head is heavy.
Feel like killing someone who destroyed my sec sch life.

|[ el mariachi | 10:45:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Best kept secret

Yesterday Hari Raya!
And i get to see my beloved grandmother.
I went to one of my granduncle's house and got to know an interesting secret.
Best kept i guess.


Well it all started in late May 2004.
My great grandmother passed away.
And i was like a soldier on mission attached to my grandmother at their house in ToaPayoh.
I stayed there for about a week.
To accompany my grandmother and to help with the kenduri.
THen there was this "auntie of mine"
Same age as me.
But in terms of hiarchy, she's my aunt

.
I was close with her since i was young.
Well i can say we grew up together.
I was close with her that night..
WHen everywhere together,
Eat, sleep, drink shop and many more together.
All on the night the deceased was found dead.
I had nothing in mind.
No feelings no strings to her.
BUt it wasnt the same for her.


Thats all i can tell.
But wtf!? after 2 years than i found out?


Something interesting ey?

|[ el mariachi | 11:06:00 PM ]|

Sunday, October 22, 2006

18 raya holiday

I am still 17.
All my other secondary close friends are already 18.
I am the youngest amongst them all.
And that feeling kinda suck.


Apparently, Azfar's clique and my clique are planning a "Jalan Raya".
But of all dates... they had to choose 7 november.
Damn. I'm gonna wear 19 layers of shirt.
I cant afford to get beaten and then go for "collection"
hahahaha


She's awaay from ydae(friday) till pagi raya.
Damn bored and my hp's so silent.
Lots of things to do around the house but done it all i guess.
After raya, she'll be gone for 2 wks overseas and'll be back only on 7th November itself.
Which happens to be my bdae and my raya outing and falls during my one week elearning break.
Great ey? no other days.


And hey..
Hari raya 30 days but public holiday 1 day.
Chinese New Year 15 days but holiday, 2 days.
WTF?
but anyway, tuesday is a public holiday,
Monday and wednesday are my self-proclaimed holiday.
I aint going back to school on the second day of hari raya.
Furthermore, there's a test. WTF! who'd wanna study on hari raya.
(except for during my O levels lah.. no choice.)
But this one, can be changed what.
The lecturer fixed the date.
If it was Chinese New Year, Would he have given a test on the day after?
I doubt so.
Ok.. lets not make racist comments.
I apologise for offending.
I didnt mean to.
I am just merely stating my thoughts.
GOd Bless uS aLL
Tawakal dan REda

|[ el mariachi | 3:49:00 AM ]|

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Happy BirthDay Fezz

Happy Bdae Hafiz or rather known as Fezz.
Friends since sec 1,
Ncc made us close.
Finally, dah lapan belas.
Tapi muka tetap primary school.
HUHUHUHUUHUAAAAAAHuahua.
Thats what my dad said when fezz came to my house.
Anyway.
This pious person, Loves girls wearing tudung, (especially those in madrasah)
HAHAHAHAH!
Fezz, aku tolong kau advertise k?
Mane tahu dapat jodoh?
Huhuahua


ANy way fezz, Happy Birthday!
Semoga Tuhan murahkan rezeki dan panjangkan umur dan cepat jumpa jodoh.
Itu yang kau mahu kan?
2ha2ha2ha.
Dah save duit nak kahwin pun.kan?
Peace to you, brother of Islam.

|[ el mariachi | 3:44:00 AM ]|

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Memories...again.

Although Hari Raya is nearing, i do not feel the excitement.
There seem to be nothing much to look forward to.
It aint the same for the past years.


the only thing i am looking forward to is going out with my secondary friends.
But i dunno if that is gonna happen again.
Well, in all my 4 years in Riverside, I've only gone out with them during hari raya once.
And that is in 2005, the year after i graduated.


In sec 1, there wasnt any outing, sec 2, I wasnt in singapore, sec 3, I was in Camp Pinnacle, Sec 4, i was at CLT course.
Nice ey?


I still remember in primary 5, i did went out with my primary school friends.
Namely, Mirta, Kamaliah, Ammin, Nizam, Zulfadli, Ain, shahida, Azveena, and damn i cant remember the rest.
I bet they don't remember me either.


I also remember the particular day where we(primary school friends) went to Kamaliah's house to just chill.
Her mom was very nice.
We even Karaoke'd.
Sweet memories. But who else do u think remember all this?


As i cleaned my room, I found many pieces of paper containing memorable and sentimental values.
I remember in 1999, Mirta Syazanna gave me a bdae card. I still have it now, Orange in colour and printed out from the Com.
I remember laughing at you in 1999 coz ur bdae was on deepavali, Budden, the following year, MY BIRTHDAY was on deepavali.
memories.


I found pictures while i was cleaning.
Pictures of Wilson, Ain, Dorene, Evelyn, Raymond and Khairul Arifin on our outing to Pasir Ris and Explanade right after NDP 2003.
That was our one and only outing as a group.
memories.


I also saw many many many many poems that i wrote on scrap pieces of papers with lots of doodlings too.
If i have the time, i'll post it up on my poem blog.
ANd how i used to admire this particular person alot.
My first love.
I've even got a pic of her and me during racial harmony 2003.


Khairul arifin, hafiz, me, hafizah, and i cant remember the rest, went to yishun Sakura for lunch then to tampines mall right after CCA open house 2003.
That is another memory i still keep.


Well, if i continue listing, the list wont stop.
There are just lots of things on my mind.
but ultimately, the one thing that is on my mind right now is 2006 2006.
The day where i found my recent life.


I'd never forget that day.
its been 117 days since then or 3 months, 25 days or
10,108,800 seconds
168,480 minutes
2808 hours
16 weeks (rounded down)
:p


thank you for reading.

|[ el mariachi | 12:13:00 AM ]|

Sunday, October 08, 2006

With every bad theres good and vice versa

Although my hp spoil, my mp3 spoil, my com got virus and damn i cant play the guitar as well as b4, i have sth to feel happy about.
I have finally found the answer.
I finally knew this wasnt a one way street.
I have found the incoming traffic.
My life is so complete yet it is destroyed.
But i cant feel much happier.


I have reached the ultimatum.
The epitome of happiness.
Love songs begins to fill the air.
I have become more righteous.


I can feel the glory in my blood.
Yet the deform items haunts me.
But i couldnt care less.


I am using my sisters phone.
And as u know, i have many many many friends.
And my sim memory is full.
And so, for those who msg me and i ask "who are you",
Do not feel bad.
I just wasnt fast enuf to save the numbers b4 my hp went down.


I have found the guarantee of sth else but not the guarantee of my phone nor my mp3.


Although i do not feel good about going to school this semester,
I think i am doing fine enuf.
I am paying more attention in class.
And i am doing my homework, except for maths. lol.


I am so down yet so up.
What is this called?


The haze has decreased.
Thank god.
It was at PSI 150 last night,and 20 this morning.
I guess the night really drowned the pain.


Ydae and today, my day and night is filled with love.
I am grateful.
TO have made a difference, Finally.
I hope it will continue this way.


but i notice a trend.
If my Love Life is good,
My social and personal life will surely be bad.
Its like a reciprocal thing.


I have yet to master the art of balancing both.
May God Show me the way.
Selamat Berpuasa.

|[ el mariachi | 9:03:00 PM ]|

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Happy Bdae Haikal

Haikal Haikal..
havent met him since Months ago.
Amacam gangster?
Baru je lepas beli rokok?
Huahuahua.
Sebenarnya, haikal doenst need to be 18..
He has a body of 25 but a face of a baby.
And hair like maggi.
huahuahua//
KB - Keli Basted.
Huahuahua


Kk gurau senda.
ANyway Happy Bdae!
Asal lah kau skang hisap merah.
Kretek BAbe

|[ el mariachi | 3:45:00 AM ]|

Thursday, October 05, 2006

~Z!~

I had many pieces t0 update.
HAd a total of like 11.
BUt everytime i wanna update halway, my com hangs.
I am really not fated to update poems.
Currently I am at my school com lab.


My computer sucks man nowadays.
But nonetheless, I've eben using it to view movies lately.
Everyday i'd at least watch one movie.
Starting from 12am-1am till 3-4am.
Then Eat Pre-dawn Meal(sahur)
and go back to sleep for about 1-hrs.
before going school.


BEen living this routine for days.
TIring.
WHen will *FirDaus Be BaCk?!
I am Missing somebody.


And BTW BTW BTW BTW!
COnGRats HaZiMah!
with 4 Distinctions for her prelims! WooHoo!
I'm so proud of you.


Until next time

A-21-m

|[ el mariachi | 9:05:00 AM ]|

Sunday, October 01, 2006

30th September

30th September
Azfar came to woodlands.
DIdnt went for terawikh and so met azfar.
I had called Fezz and Hilmi along.
Fezz said he wanted to go for prayers.
Hilmi said this,
"Aku tak keluar ah niari, aku nak tengok bola"
Sadiq was too lazy to meet us.


Brought Azfar to a new place which he hasnt been to in woodlands.
Marsiling Causeway View Jetty.
We were walking towards it from Woodlands MRT.
Along the way,
I called Fezz as we were very near his block.
SO we decided to meet up.
But to my Surprise...


I saw Hilmi with him.
SO much of his " I cant go out"
hahahahaha.
TF!


SO we kinda cornered hilmi to follow us as we walked towards the jetty.
Lemme tell you what the jetty is all about.
(Of course, to those who doesnt know)


As you know, The Causeway is located in Woodlands,
Or rather Old Woodlands Road.
And so at the end of the
Marsiling Neighbourhood, U can see the sea.
Located downhill from CAuseway VIew Neighbourhood
(blocks 200+)
U can see the whole right side of the causeway from the jetty.
THe place is very calm and quite and peaceful.
U'll see many cars stuffed with lovers finding a gd spot to make love.
ANd yeah, at the end of the month or on certain occasions,
You can see fireworks.
When we went, there were 4 sets of fireworks.


THen went to hilmi's house then to HILL, then to CWP then to the back of the Interchange and finally home at 10am.
And so i didnt fast for the first time.
When i reached home on the SUnday Morning,
I am too tired.
Havent slept and walking around at insane distances.
Only managed to sleep at 6pm after helping my parents clean the house.
And so, Woke up just in time for Sahur on Monday.


Long day.
And so that was the 30th September.

|[ el mariachi | 8:48:00 AM ]|

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE SUKHBIR!

Uncle Sukhbir!
TOday ur already old!
That was why i wished u last week... On the 13th.
I waanted to wish before u get old.
But now i guess too late.. ur older...




Hope u finally get to meet the right gal for you.
When want to get married lah dei?
Oops sori.. NS also havent go.. Go NS first k?
HAHAHAHAHA!!
Unlce uncle!
Where are those times man>?
Nevermind.. We will relive it again once everybody is free.
K?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND ALL THE BEST!
-Azim, part of the NCC family.

|[ el mariachi | 6:59:00 PM ]|

Sunday, September 17, 2006

I want ... but...

Stuck at home on the last Sunday before PUASA!


3 days to 3mths since the day i met pu3


I am so restless.
So fucking restless.
I got 1803 songs on my com but none seems to fit my mood.
Still stuck with Oasis.
I want to hang out but noone seems free on sunday.
I got no money and my ezlink's with my mom.
I m online but cant find people to talk to.
SHe topped up her prepaid but i dun want to bother her as she's studying.
Basically i am lonely and hopeless.
I want to play my guitar but my fingers are swollen.
I want to sleep but my eyes cant close.
I want to eat but i lost my appetite.
I want something to do and so i blog.


Havent updated my poem blog since AUgust 2nd.
I have 6 poems with me but just too lazy to post all.
I want to start school but cant find the mood to study.
Everythings so ful of buts.


Will someone enlighten me?


I found someone but has the person found me?


I have yet to prove myself.
But will i have the chance?
Am i just hoping too much?
Am i giving too much?
SHould i commit myself again?
FUck i hate this feeling.
My mind is in a mess.


:D


I am smiling but i am not.
K enuf for now.
ENjoy ur day..
And thanks for reading. i appreciate.

|[ el mariachi | 5:11:00 PM ]|

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Botanic Garden

ONE MORE WEEK ONLY LEFT! TO FASTING AND TO THE RESUMATION OF SCHOOL IN THE SECOND SEMESTER OF THE SECOND YEAR!


Went to Botanic gardens yesterday.
Canberra and PHS were having orienteering.
Then err.. Ridzman invite them over to Woodlands for dinner.
blablabla..
time to go..
SO.. ahem..
I took train to angmokio.
Don't ask me why..
I stay in Admiralty.
:D


So sent her home.
(oops, did i just give another clue?)
k.. thats all.. lets stop here..


Before that, forget to mention.. Ridzman made us took wrong bus.. naseb baik we go down the next stop, if not go lucky tower.
Adios.

|[ el mariachi | 11:18:00 AM ]|

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

SENTOSA

During the Examination Period, We initiated an outing together. All my classmates and Azfar's classmates and also including my friends. On 10th and 11th September. The plan was carried out. We went to Sentosa and spent the night there.


9 Sept 9.00pm
Went to Hafezz' house to watch our first video taken during our jamming session. not so bad.


10.00pm
Got on the phone with pu3


10 Sept 02.00am
Got off the phone. Had a bath. Turn on the computer. till....


05.00am
slept


0800am
Woke up ate breakfast, Bathe.


0900am
Went to Woodlands MRT but that dog was late as usual so i didnt waited for him. I just Went off w/o even telling. Minutes later he called and said he just woke up. And told me to wait for him! C.mon lah. Ur already late and i am on the train, Why the fuck should i wait for you when u just woke up. WHo the fuck do you think u r? Ur Forever late but NEVER EVER have the sense of urgency. Always pretending nothings wrong and wouldnt even ask for apology. you'll be like, "Late? so? you didnt wait for me what. I told you i was gonna be late. You don't want to wait ur problem ah"


1000am
Met iqbal at harbourfront.
I thought all were supposed to come at 1000am.? None except me and iqbal.


1100am
Most of them arrived. Wanted to walk across the bridge but it was closed, " NO PEDESTRIAN WALKING "


1200pm
Reached SENTOSA. Found a playground with shelter. Started to rain. So we sat at the playground which looked like a treeehouse at PALAWAN beach.
THe rain started and stopped for sometime then we went out to play.
Did i Mention? Satbir brought a carton of cigarettes and shared it with the rest of the smokers..
WTF?
Spent the night there.
FOund a cool place to chill out.


0323am
She told me to sleep. But instead, I went to the "SOuthernmost point of COntinental Asia" then headed back to the chill place.
played guitar, chatted, slacked.
Hungry? downstairs got 7-11
Toilet? Nearby
Played a game me and faizal created which ended up to 100 over goals.


1100am
Left Sentosa. Reached woodlands 1 hr later with 963 ad our mode of transport.


THANKS TO THOSE WHO CAME

Iqbal
Hazwan
SHaiful
Azfar
Naim
Satbir
Yan
Faizal
Hafeez
Dog

|[ el mariachi | 11:56:00 AM ]|

Friday, September 08, 2006

Have been going out everyday now.
Never at home till after 11pm.
Just got off the phone with her and realised that i did make a difference.
But from our conversation, i can deduct that she still doesnt have faith in me.
I cant blame her for what she has gone through. Bitter memories will always affect your mind. Emotions and feelings are two separate entity.


This was quoted somewhere.
Emotions are things created by your mind
Feelings are things felt by the heart


But i will wait..
If God permits and bless me with a long life,
and if destiny wants it that way.
I can never promise.
Or rather, i am afraid to promise.
I never dare mess with the affairs of the heart.
I'm sorry to those i have hurt.
I realise i am wrong but i cant say it to you people personally.
I do not want to give the hope.
Never ever again.


And one thing... hindi movies likes to give me hope.
and makes u think that... YES u will get her... no matter what u'll win..
Unrealistic and fantasy based...
But still, i like to watch:)

|[ el mariachi | 12:08:00 AM ]|

Monday, September 04, 2006

crisis

i have reached a juntion with signboards.
The roads are clear. but i need to make a decision on which road to take.
I feel like continuing on the expressway and not exiting.
but the expressway isnt as express as i thought. There are still traffic jams.


If i were to take the exit, there will be no chance of entering the expressway again as it will still be jammed. Its like a lose lose situation. All i can do is hope for the traffic to be less congested. But what good will it do if the road is clear but the vehicle is not in gd condition.


The will to fight has decreased since the last battle which closed all my desires to win. I lost trust in hope. I do not believe in hope anymore. I believe that fate plays an important role. Hope will only increase ur esteem and when it fails.. U drop tremendously. U crash. U shatter. U fall hard. Then why hope?


When ur vehicle is not working well, U seek a mechanic. But this time.. there seems to be no mechanics around, Only electricians who can help you do the rewiring needed. WHere are the mechanics when u need them?


I have learnt to accept fate. But until when? for how long? I hope He gives me time. long enough to survive this crisis

|[ el mariachi | 10:08:00 PM ]|

Monday, August 21, 2006

exams

happy dah mabuk!
Two papers passed.
Both i aint confident.
SSTAB actually can pass ah.
BUT EMEC!
FUCK!
but nevermind.
I shall heed nas' advice to concentrate on the future papers as i know i have prepared myself well enuf for the apss two papers.


BUt it just aint fair.
THe past year papers were so easy.
but this time round.
LIKE FUCK!
kk cool.
I am still stressed out.
After both papers i become mad
(not that i aint mad)


I got no time to think of peoms.
Nothing interesting has happened.
I NEEED TO GET MYSELF TO STUDY!
K later meeting fezz at SP.


Last night AZFAR_21 came to woodlands.
and we hang around with fezz.
then he slept over at my house,
First time budak EAST side thon at my house.
THen both of us slept at 5.. woke up at 1045.
He was supposed to meet the rest to study at 11..
while me suppose to meet fezz at 10.
SO ya.. u can see the delay.
and why i am still at home blogging.


May i really study later.
TOmorrow's the next paper.
I do not want to be dissapointed again.
Insyallah.


CAnt wait for friday.
Meeting my princess.
:x

|[ el mariachi | 12:04:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

confession?

Was life ever fair?
HOw can you decide?
How long have you lived to judge your life?
There is one thing i have picked up.
I learn to gain experience through other's experiences.
heres a qtn i'd like to ask girls out there.


"how does it feel to have a guy confessing to you when u least expect it?"


Option A, U like the guy.
Option B, U dun


easy qtn ey?
well..
it's not that simple when u experience it urself.
nah.. wasnt me..

|[ el mariachi | 12:00:00 AM ]|

Monday, August 14, 2006

EXAM FEVER

Exams in 2 days..
and as usual..
i fell sick.
sore throat/runny nose/fever/dry cough/chest pains/weakness.


been trying to revise but nth just gets in.
Prolly i need some sleep.


My instincts have never failed me.
I have been observing and i realise that it was true.
But no.
Noone chose to believe.
Well. Am i right now?
I can tell by just observing.
ITs a form of self defence.
For me to make sure noone can tell by my actions.
SO i avoid those things which i have observed.
I'm sure noone understands what i'm talking about.
For i am still keeping it a secret.

|[ el mariachi | 11:47:00 PM ]|

Saturday, August 12, 2006

HAPPY BRITHDAY PUTERI!

WELL WELL WELL!
TODAY IS MY PRINCESS' BDAE!
FINNALY SHE'S AGING!


DIDNT GET TO MEET YA TODAY BUT HEY!
I GOT YOUR PRESENT ALRIGHT
I SWEAR I DO
AND I'LL GIVE IT TO YA WHEN WE MEET.
GOD KNOW'S WHEN.


ANYWAY! HAPPY BDAE!!!!!!
MAY YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL LIFE AHEAD OF YOU!
MAY EVERYTHING GOES YOUR WAY.
AND EVEN WHEN IT DOESNT, ENJOY THE LESSON LEARNT


HAPPY BDAE PRINCESS!
MISSING YOU
aL

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Friday, August 11, 2006

Unplanned

Everything was unplanned today.
Went to school in the morning for CSW ROLE PLAY CUM TEST.
THEN! after that...


Went for breakfast at FC3.
Then went to ADmin to pay for our fire fighting course.
I was expecting, after all this..
I owuld eventually go home and study.. but i was wrong.
WE approached dover MRT. Hazwan and Wandi went home.
Naim and Sat and me board the train.
BUT!!!...


When we reached Clementi, We alighted as SAt made the decision.
Went back to school.
Why?
Because SAt wanted to have a look at the gal he liked(*to be explain later why i used past tense)


So we went back to school.
When we entered.. My wallet dropped and all its contents dropped out.
That delayed us by 1 minute..
BUT when we reached in front of the library, there she was.. and we decided to follow her up to the 3rd level.


We sat down.. Wanted to revise.. BUT!
Played Taiti(card game)instead..
Then went up to 5th level..
played cards with them.
and k.. too long ah... lazy to type..


after all that..
Went to Lido..
Wanted to study initially with faizal.
BUT..
Instead went BK to eat..
tHEn to Esplanade..


Watch Fireworks!
Nicer than NDP!
I cant believe AKID actually laid down int the middle of the walkway flooded with people and pretended to faint.
EVERYONE was shocked and stared at him while Izzat pretended to do CPR.
DAMn! betul2 SETAN!


Then went THong SEng to eat with Azfar and Faz.


THen went meet bakar haikal sadiq zal at wdlds.
Walked home.
Played guitar till 4am.
Cant take it..
Went home.
Sleep..

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

SINGAPORE IDOLS!

Little did i know that faizal is Rahimah's cousin.
So i got to go to spore idols the SPectaculars 9.
YEah i know, u must be thinking i supported Rahimah.
BUt nope. I support Hady Mirza.


We got to stand beside the stage and it was a whole lot of fun.
We get to criticise Paul TOHELL in his face. didnt expect to get a chance to be there.
Met this group of SETANs from Dunman Secondary. THey are really setan.
THey insulted mathilda directly at her..Showed a middle finger to Paul..(faizal also did that).. and worst still.. MAde a fool of a bapok.


THis was what he said to the bapok.


Setan: EH fat boy whats ur name ah?
Bapok: (putting his hands at his ear) I cant hear you.
Setan: AH takpe lah. I CALL YOU BAPOK!!!!


Setan kan?
But yesh.. I hate to admit..
I hate sissy boys.
Not all.
But most.
Ezpecially those who pretends to be gay.
But instead.. Get closer to girls.
I hate those type of people.
C'mon.
WHat the fuck is happening to the world.


Well after the Idols, We went Newton to eat.
Faizal's family sponsored.

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

catching up

today was singapore poly national day observation ceremony.
I am involve and had to wear no.3 IN POLY. wtf?
but hey.. its cool.. no marching at all..


and and and


after that was buffet.. the food... MARVELLOUS!
freaking high class.. all for us.. SPNCC, SPNPCC, ROVERS(Scouts), Primers(boysbrigade), and the SMA nautical studies in their unform..




got a problem. 12 august is a special day.
a birthday of a special person..
BUT I AM SERIOUSLY OUT OF CASH.
10 days to save up.




and one more thing.
I had to back out in NDP once.
Now i have to back out again.
For NAtional Camp.
I was involve in the Opening Ceremony.
In the planning commitee for the sea display.
Everything was so nice.
But..
I cant be involved anymore.
I cant go for last weeks's rehearsal.
and the following one too.
Not even the Actual.
COz i got this CSW test last week and the following.
and my fucking sissy teacher dun allow me to postpone the test.
I told him it was national camp.
But that fucking sissy dun even noe what the fuck was it.
and he said this.
"even if it was ur grandfather's bdae, u better come for this test or i will fail you."
why the fuck does he have to involve my grandad?


he is really a sissy i tell you.
a pure gay.
The first time u look at him, u can already tell.
the way he walks, talks and laugh.
And he is soo politics..
he keep saying about the PM lee and MM Lee.
And he seems anti PAP.
he keep saying the reason for everything is PAP.
K fuck it.
why am i talking abt him anyway.
peace.

|[ el mariachi | 8:02:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

deading

For the first time, today, I kinda got home early.
Had this Grooming for a Professional Image Workshop which was held from 3.30 - 5.30.
BUT.. went in, signed my attendance.. Went out thru the other door. And came home.


Been watching movies and movies and movies.
Loaned from my school library.
I guess watching movies is the only way to occupy me.
Where are those people who always search for me?
I am lonely again.


K fuck it.. My life is getting dull.
I dun even have any idea what to write for my poetry blog.
WHat the fuck is happening?
THere seems to be no fucking thing to do.
Noone to talk to.
and worst still.
I sense a change in her.
Change the way she talks.
I dun feel like we're close again.
WELL of course i wish we were.
Its just that somethings bothering her.
Her family.
Yes i do understand..
But everything seems to go away from me.
I miss my friends.

|[ el mariachi | 9:30:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIDZMAN

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RIDZMAN!

U used to hate me.
Hate my face and wished i never became a CLT.
But now as you get to know me.
Is things still the same?
I hope not.
Been a close buddy.
On the phone, outside.. anywhere.
But your getting OLD...
Huahuahua...
May you find happiness in Haneesa.
(actually you already did)
May things go the way u want.

|[ el mariachi | 9:18:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Happy Birthday Hilmi and PAPA

Happy Birthday HILMI!


dah sah chamok.
classmates for 2 years.
but at that time,
we had some misunderstanding between us.
Hey wait.
U misunderstood me.
I was okay with you all along.


Semoga kau grow up k?
Bukan physically.
Tapi mentally.
Physically kau dah cukup besar dah.!
huahuahua.
DO not let others make a fool of urself lah,
Ur old enough to think.
Well, Had lots of memories together rite?
I hope u wont bear any grudges against me.
My tick off is for your own good.
You know why?
Cause everybody is saying things behind your back,.
But i told you straightforwardly.
Maybe its too harsh to accept.
But whats the point of speaking behind ur back
when you don't know and cant change,
RIght?
Those people are just cowards.
HAve a Wonderful birthday,




Happy Birthday PAPA!
Today is my father's birthday!
I havent got him any present yet but i will.
Lol..
DIdnt get anything last year,
I have to get for him something so i can but sth for my mom too.
If not it''ll be unfair and bias.
All the best papa.
You have worked hard to raise this family.
Problems after problems appear but you were strong.
Anjoy this day.

|[ el mariachi | 1:10:00 AM ]|

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

To whom it may concern

Ur wrong. I never blamed you.


isnt the sentence above contradicting?
First you blame someone for being wrong,
then u say u dont blame the latter.


no matter what,
the moral of the story is, I never blamed you.
Its just that i had enough of entanglements.
I do not want to induldge in anymore.
Nope, I havent gave up.


When you know that an accident is going to happen, what do you do?
Don't tell me your just gonna stay there and watch?
Obviously anyone in the correct state of mind would avoid it.
And yes. I have been doing that.
I aint running away.
I am just avoiding.
You'll think its wrong now,
But when ur mind is settled,
U'll realise i am doing the right thing.
I didnt expect the storybook with a new chapter to end this way.
The reason?
Only you have the answer.
I have no right to judge anyone.
Its your life,
you decide.
Whats done is done.
to whom it may concern,
I am sorry if i have caused any misunderstanding.
I really am.
And to whom it may concern(2),
I am sorry to have left you in this difficult spot.

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Monday, July 17, 2006

Baybeats 2006

If someone were to ask me,
"who's your best friend?"
I dare not answer.
You know why?
Coz i cant find the answer myself.


YES i do have close friends.
But to me, even 100 close friends cant make a best friend.
I am not trying to say that my close friends are worthless.
You are great.


But the problem is.
Noone can read my mind.
Yes i can turn to people when i have a problem.
But will they always be there for me?
No.. We are too far away even to meet always.
Everyone is busy with their own stuffs.
Everysingle time i have a problem,
THere is noone there to speak out for me.
To defend me and say
"He did Nothing wrong. I know him well."
NOONE.


I still remember an incident in Secondary 3.
I was confronted by a bunch of fuckers.
My close friend tailed us as we went into a classroom.
When my head was pushed to the wall,
Did my friend stop them?
Did he even open his mouth?
NO.
Cos why?
he isnt my best friend.
He is just my close friend.
Someone who knows me.
And communicates with me frequently.


Who is there at 3am when i needed someone to talk to?
All seem to be asleep.
ANd prefer to talk the following day.
Some never even reply my msgs.
Who the Fuck cares?


There is noone who can read my mind.
Who knows every single thing about me.
Coz every different friend of mine knows different areas of my life.
There is no single person who knows all.


I do not mind getting hurt.
But getting hurt ALWAYs,
is getting on my nerves.


Whats the point of bringing out ancient stories?
For pleasure?
Oh Fuck it.
It just makes me feel worst.


When i do something,
I swear i must have thought about it umpteen times before finally making the decision to do it.
I dun just do things for the sake of fun.
I think before doing.
SO i will never regret my choice.
I know if its right or wrong,
I am a young adult.
But noone seems to have confidence in my decision.
I've said i never liked you. I will never go back on my words.
DOn't ask why.
Its Meant to be that way.
I may have broken your heart..
But i have to remain persistant.
I am someone who cares about others feelings before myself.
I hate to be selfish.
Breaking your heart for it to heal isnt so bad after all.
So stop thinking about US..
I sadi i would disappear,
yes i will.
I seem to be the cause of your misery.
SO goodbye.


There's nothing more i could ask for from you,
I have my princess.
Although she is not there yet for me.
I am happy.
Even if she is not made for me,
i'll be happy.
I just hate love triangles.. In this case, love pentagon.
I've been heartbroken since the age of 9 and i know how it feels like.
I do not want any1 else to feel the same.


Been writing a lot.
But i doubt any of you really understand what i am trying to say.
I am just down.
Only God knows what i am feeling.


Frankly, I am okay.
Its just my heart that is forcing all these words out from me.
I am sure after posting this, I will receive tags like " I am here." , "I will alwasy be ur friend" ,etc.etc.etc
Thanks anyway for trying to make me feel better.
But forget it.
I did not post for you to take sympathy.
I just post to relieve myself of this misery.
Good Night Everyone!
May the force be with you

|[ el mariachi | 12:21:00 AM ]|

Friday, July 14, 2006

SOCCER!

Monday- played intensive soccer
Tuesday- Workshop
Wednesday- Travellled around Spore.
Thursday- Swimming
Friday(today)- SOCCER AGAIN!


Today i have actually calibrted people of different backgrounds to join us in our Monday/Friday Soccer Sucker.
My Secondary School Brothers will be joinng us..
Syazwan From CLS might be joining.
Faizal from EEE with his friends.
Hilmi from SB with his friend.
Hafiz from EEE.
Bakar From NYP.
Iqbal from SMA with his friends.
THerefore i call this meeting a succesful one.
Provided those who say they were coming really turn up.
ANyway.. its a street soccer event.
REsumes at 5.30pm.. till about 8pm today.
Interested to play? come along. just bring along extra shirt.
Also, PAY ME $20.....
kk. joking.
Well.. this whole week is really a workout week for me.


Next week, I am gonna be focusing on my studies once again.
No more late nights cause this will end me up sleeping in lectures.
I have to catch up on those things i miss as my Exam is in 4 weeks time.
THis exam is critical as even if i fail one subject, i have to repeat.
Therefore i am not taking any chances.
I am supposed to have a class now till 12pm.. but i decided not to go as i wont be paying attention anyway.
i'll just go the 3 o'clock class.
till 5.. then SOCCER!
before i retire to studies.

|[ el mariachi | 6:30:00 AM ]|

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Stars

I cant see the stars tonight.
The beautiful clouds are covering the moon.
Well, still a beautiful night aint it?
yesterday was the peak of my soccer career.
Today is the downturn of my health.
Blistered my feet, injured my leg.
Still alive.
The week is turning busy again.
Leadership Training Camp briefing, Poly 50, National Camp briefing.
All this week.
But tomorrow class from 11am to 12pm.
sorry for the random posting method.
I am feeling quite lost right now.
I dunno if it'll work out.
I dunno if it would even start.
Only HE knows.
The Almighty.

|[ el mariachi | 11:20:00 PM ]|

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Name Names Nama Numa

Imagine this.


Farid is attached to Fiona,however Fiona likes Ricky who ikes Rinah who likes Adam who somehow knows Farid and Ricky.
Who would you like to be?


I choose none.


Reason?


I fuckingly hate love pentagons.


I feel i have disappeared from everyone i am close with.
Bakar, Faizal, Hilmi, Hafiz, Haikal, Zhiyang, Alloysius, CHong Wei,
Khairi, UncleSukh, Farah, Sadrina, Natasha, Syafiq, Fidaae, Ridzman, Hassan, Iffah, Masturah,
Hazwan, Satbir, Izwandi, Khai, Adnan, Naim, Irfan,
Alin, Daeng, Faie, Mat Nor
who else?


I felt like running away, but eventually i didnt.
I would like to apologise.
My bicycle is spoil and my shirt is soiled.
My head is spoil and my heart is foiled
OMG!
Why are there so many names out of my mind suddenly.
those i didnt mention. I am sorry..

|[ el mariachi | 11:17:00 PM ]|

HASSAN 17

Hassan is finally 17.
I guess you must be enjoying yourself at the Esplanade right now.
SOrry i couldnt join you.
We already activated the NCC Family but all seem to be busy in their own things.
But hey!
Think about it.
We are letting you spent ur bdae with your gal(s).hahaha
THis is the first time she's celebrating your birday with you.
Treasure this day.
Nonetheless, did ya bring your extra shirt?
well, Just in case.
You'll never know who and where something will pop out from and attack you.
so hassan, Semoga ALLAH panjangkan umur.
Murah Rezeki.
Jangan gatal2 lagi.
SIR LUMP MUD HURRY JAR DEE

|[ el mariachi | 9:54:00 AM ]|

Thursday, July 06, 2006

*.*.*.* = H.O.P.E = F.U.C.K

The last time our band played together was on 16 of April during our first GIG.
Noone seems to have time to commit themselves to play together.
Today, nonetheless, although it was a last minute thing,
We came together and jammed again.
However, the outcome was not promising.
We are really incomplete.
We lack something.
I know what it is but i shant mention it here.
I'd keep it to myself the way i kept to myself after the jamming session just now.
I just don't feel like saying it.
I'm afraid i will hurt anyone.
C'mon, I'm sure the rest of the "MARRIED WITH CHILDREN"
knows what i'm talking about.


I have been told many times that our band was dibanded.
Saying we had no time.
We lost interest.
Whatsoever.
But now i feel that i am the only one serious about playing this band.
Talk about the interest.
I practiced and made sure i played everything promptly and correctly.
Fuck, i am just dissapointed.
Where is the soul and Brotherhood we use to have.
Who is this guy?
What the fuck was he thinking?
C'mon, Life ist about style.
Perhaps, the only person who understands the fucking situation now is Hafiz.
yes, Fezz.


I do not want to give up.
I am so worked out now.
Not only the band seems to make me feel miserable.
Also, I feel that my life is gonna crash.


God knows how i feel.




Imagine this.
You know a lorry is coming your way.
But you have nowhere to run.
You just have to silently wait for your end.
All you can do is pray hard and HOPE that the lorry would swerve away.
But then again,
I would like to emphasize the Word HOPE.
I have never liked that word.


HoPE makes you think it would be okay.
HoPe gives you the unnecesary confidence.
HoPe makes you ignorant of the disapproval.
HoPe is nothing but a fantasy.


ah FUck it.
Whats the point of having sumone so close to you yet you know that it would somehow end one day.
I am now leaving all up to FATE(not hoping for anything)
Destiny awaits

|[ el mariachi | 11:08:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wonderful Wednesday

Went out house late today although i didnt slept at all last night.
I was running a high fever.
My mind is on the verge of tearing apart.
So yeah, went to EMEC Practical.
There was supposed to be 5 people in my group.
But hey, None of my Group members turn up.
I had to do the Fucking experiment all by myself.
But hey, I ended quite fast.
Still i am left to do the report all by myself.


Next, went to electronic's tutorial.
Did 2 questions and i was ready to leave.
Ended class at around 1045am.
Had nothing to do to wait till 2pm.
So i helped out the Electronics Lecturer to pack Goodie Bags for some golf fund raising event.


K here's the best part..
Met my Doctor and my fever suddenly went off.
Went to Juncti8n.
Sat at the Interchange macdonalds.
Tried my best to help her in Maths
but Fuck.. My Maths Sucked.
Got a couple of questions right..
But the rest..
I dun even have any idea on how to do.
K.
We then left.
I am no longer sick.
BUT.
I kinda actually passed the flu to her.
Now she's in bed trying to recover while i am as fresh as ever.
I hope she recovers soon.
Felt kinda bad.
But Doctor says, If your about to get sick, u will still get sick no matter what.


Enuf of boring Journal entries.





May the flower bloom?
Will this love last?
It hasnt even started has it?
I leave it all to fate.
Kita Hanya Merancang, Tuhan Menentukan

|[ el mariachi | 9:03:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

another day

I am beginning to love my HP more these days.
My hp is the only connection to Dr L


No matter how close we are.
I still sense a feeling of uncertainty.
This aura of doubt.
A feeling that makes you cling on ur past and afraid to indulge in something new.
I have been analysing the situation over and over again.
Only to realise that once again, its all left to fate.
We plan, but GOD determines.
I do not want to pin any hopes on the outcome.
I do not want to crash hard on the ground again.
But i belief in Luck.
be it good or bad.


Been receiving Lots and Lots of discouragement lately from those close to me.


But on the whole,
I realise that this 'tests' are for my own good.
I wont be dissapointed.


I have never been succesful entirely anyway.
What made me think i am gonna be successful now?


well..
i started with something happy.
Now i am ending with something happy too..
TOmorrow i will be meeting her..
Yay.!

|[ el mariachi | 8:52:00 PM ]|

Sunday, July 02, 2006

SYF

SYF was kinda a success.
The Sea Supporting Contigent did wonderfully well.
Not to mention, the Air and GOH too did perfect.


Went to to Yishun in the morning to meet my Doctor.
Went to kallang to meet Ridzman.
Wore Long Leviathans and Number 3 half u,
My favourite form of NCC dressing.


Me and Ridzman walked one whole big round the stadium to find Leisure Park only to realise that it has been Demolished.
What fools.


Saw Khairi with his half No.1
I miss that uniform..
hahaha.
The last time i wore was during Khairi's CLT cse POP


Then went to City hall to have our dinner cum celebrating Tasha's bdae.
met Yuhtee's sis and her 2 friends,
one from MALAYSIA.
MALAYSIA BOLEH!
That particular friend of hers uses POSBcard as an EZlink.
Probably she was experimenting it.
Or maybe Malaysia's like that.
Took train to Tampines and took 969 home.
Dreamt of Doctor in the Bus.






Theres still something in my mind
10 days seems like 10 years.
I miss my Doctor already.
GIve me some medicine.
I am falling sick.
Love you lots.
Doctor L.
Love U.
yeah.
(;
`

|[ el mariachi | 12:28:00 AM ]|

Thursday, June 29, 2006

updates

I am out of NDP...
Its not that i am no longer interested in it.
Its just that whenever there is NDP,
Surely something crop out.


Now i only have SYF.
SYF, i had to support my sea contigent.
Initially i wasnt part of it.
But my CSO, Ma'am Esther, keep calling me asking about it and
suddenly my name was submitted as instructor.
Probably she couldnt contact Ridzman.


Finally got my ICEP badge ydae.


This Saturday will be the actual day for SYF.
I am sure everything will turn out well.
I have confidence in them.
And of course, I will get to meet her again.
(;


RIDZMAN! I AM SORRY TO HAVE LOST YOUR SYF TICKETS!
I GAVE YOU 2 SO I OWE U 2 MORE...
TOMORROW K?
I ALREADY ASKED FROM SINGAPORE POLY TO GET ME 2.
I WONT LET YOU DOWN.
REALLI SORRY!


Hmm.. my Mid-Semester test results was better than expected.
63/74/88/91
all upon 100.


Since twenty-o-six twenty-o-six,
my life has become more cheerful.
I found the motivation in life again.
I found the light.
Once more.
But,
I hope
that its not
a non-return valve
as i have had enough
of all these.


At the same time, I have had a fucked up luck.
First i lost Ridz's Tickets, Next i almost got a ticket.
Yes a summon ticket.
From National Environment Agency.
I did mention almost.
I didnt get the $200 ticket,
but i got sth worst..
Thats for being born late.
;(

|[ el mariachi | 5:26:00 PM ]|

Friday, June 16, 2006

BUSY MAN

My schedule for this month
2nd June ISCEP
3rd June ISCEP
4th June ISCEP
5th June Work
6th June Work
7th June CCAB SURVEY / work
8th June Work
9th June spec course
10th June spec course
11th June ISCEP
12th June SYF / World Of Tea Class / work
13th June Work
14th June Customer Service Class / work
15th June Work
16th June SUPERNITE!
17th June work
18th June Spec Course
19th June Spec Course
20th June Spec Course
21st June Work
22nd June BBQ
23rd June BBQ
24th June Work
25th June Work (nana bdae)
26th June SCHOOL REOPENS


Every Single Fucking Day of my holidays is used up.. No fucking Free Day at all..
Muahahahahaha..
will somebody help to enlighten me?
I have been so fucking Bz, I have no time to update..


Just came back from Supernite!
Its a Supernumerary Gathering Nite.
Had soccer/captain's ball/bbq and of course,
Ameer, Taufique, Syafiq and me played some songs.
We kinda decide on the spot.
I have never played guitar with ameer before.
Therefore its my first great experience.
We are good at different areas.
well well.. nice working with ya.


About the ISCEP.
I have to highlight, there were CANADIANs, INDIANs and HONGKONGians.
Nice knowing them.

I cant belief i am involved in SYF and NDP.
Muahahaha.


until next free day.

|[ el mariachi | 11:02:00 PM ]|

Friday, June 02, 2006

Back.

Sorry pals, time hasnt been on my side lately.
On the 31st June 2006,
I have found the motivation for me to move ahead in life.
Blue roses are rare but beautiful.
I guess i have found one.
I am still wondering if it is LAFS.
I hope i'll have enough time to find out.


Its like u go to a shop.
You found something nice and u want it badly.
But when u went up to the cashier, the salesperson said it was sold earlier.
U then wonder if u should just walk away or wait for the owner to sell it.


I hope, i wont have to do anything to make the owner refund the item.


alright. until next time.
Having ISCEP till sunday.
Back soon.


In love once again.

|[ el mariachi | 12:39:00 AM ]|

Sunday, May 21, 2006

VIctim suspect theory

Is it fair to play soccer against someone with an injured leg?
Is it fair to attack someone with an injured heart?

Corrupting the mind.
Cornering to a corner?
Use the downs as ur advantage.
Show that ur experienced.
Assume that all situations are similar.
Impose what u did before.
Make the vulnerable heart falls for it.
Go against friends just to 'fit' into the situation.

The victim may not realise.
The victim might even like the things you do
because of your poison.
But I am not blind.
I see problems evolving when u came into the picture.
Things wouldnt have happened if you werent there.
I have no right to blame you.
But my mind still says ur the Suspect.
WOuld the victim know about all the clues?
Obviously not.
Only the suspect can tell the clues
in a way the suspect wont get caught.
I DUN GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE.
THANKS FOR ALL THESE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS.

|[ el mariachi | 9:15:00 AM ]|

Saturday, May 20, 2006

I lost trust

Trust is when u know and confident to share.
Trust is knowing your secret wont leak no matter what.
Trust is when u wont le arguements make you blurt.
Trust is heart and mind together.


Fuck those who shares wrongly.
Fuck those who leaks.
Fuck those who blurt when their angry.
Fuck those who have no heart nor mind




Dont blame when your the same.

|[ el mariachi | 8:12:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Know urself

I'm sure you'll meet many people in your live.
The Good, the Bad, and some you just don't know.
But is it really true?
Is it true that they are good or bad as judged by you?
Do you know them well enough to judge them?
This is what i classify as 'judging by first impression'.


I realise that i cannot be judged by first impression.
People who meets me think i am happy.
Problem-free, Happy-go-lucky.
Well thats good.
Thats what i want people to think.
I do not want to bother them with the problems
and circumstances i am undergoing.


By reading both my blogs,
U have learnt at least 40% of me.
where the other 10% is by first impression.
And 30% by talking frequently with me.
the last 20%?
I bet noone really knows.
But i do have close friends who knows 10% out of the 20%.
10% is still unknown,
Even i dunno.
Sometimes i just fell i do not know myself well enough.


A few things i running thru my mind now.
I am feeling very uncertain.
Uncertainty.
I do not know:
whether i want it
whether i need it
whether i should
whether its true
whether its okay
whether its alright


I bet you do not understand,
I am just waiting for signs.
I feel more like a failure.
never sucessful.
Only God knows what i'm feeling.

|[ el mariachi | 1:39:00 AM ]|

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Hafizah binte Muhamad

The graph of my life is very jerky now.
With feelings that come and go unexpectedly.
I think i am coping well with the decline.


I used to have something o look forward for evryday in school.
Now, the motivations gone but my concentration seems better.


During my secondary days, I keep looking forward to see you when i go to school.
I keep looking around in the bus to see if there is fate to meet you.
The first place i will look at as i enter the school is the place you hang out every morning.
I will find every excuse to approach you table, although its damn obvious.


I would look forward to Malay and English lessons coz thats the time where we will be in the same class.
I would stare at you without blinking for minutes each time i had the opportunity to.
I would go in to you class during recess and sit at her table.
I would vandalise your name on my hand.
I would stare at your photo in my wallet.
I would look for you in the canteen during recess.
I would delay my timing to go home just to be in the same bus as you.
I would hold my phone with me everytime hoping you would call, but i ended up calling you instead.
I would be alert everytime someone goes online to see if it was you.
I would check your friendster regularly.
I would buy you sweets.
I would buy you Snickers.
I would look up your window everytime i pass by your block.


I remember sending you to school.
your wet hair, fresh from the shower.
your non-creased uniform.
your sling bag.
your file.
your watch.
and of course your eyes.


I remember the long hours talking on the phone with you.
Practically everyday.
Expecially during the SARS break.
We would talk till 5am.
for 3 days/nights.
The calls u would give me on my birthday.
THe First call i get on HARI RAYA.
was from you.
I doubt u remember.


I also recall thinking of what to do for ur bdae.
Remember the first one i gave you in 2003?
The Giant sweet wrapper made of cloth
with $XX worth of sweets and chocolates in it?
With the iron-on of ur name?
with the rubber band for tieing ur hair.


Then in 2004, the wooden plank of wood with
the symbol i made using the reciprocating view of ur name?
all in pink, ur favourite colour. I came up with that symbol
after writing ur name for at least a hundred times.
I hope you'd appreaciate it as it came from my heart.


Remember the fluffy, silicone-like material, pink, heart shaped cushion i gave you?
initially u thought there was nothing inside the box, but there was.


Remember the McSpicy double meal that was delivered to ur house when u were unaware
of it as u were talking on the phone with me?
Remember the Toblerone i sent to ur house on MY birthday?


I'll never forget the kiss on 21st February 2003


Remember we went to the airport to send delima off?
Together with Zhiyang?
Well, that was the First time ever i was late for school.


Remember how u used to hate me to send you home?
Remember u had to put down the phone at 10pm?
Remember our date on 21st March 2004?
The Lasagne meal i bought for you?
The 'Honey' soundtrack CD?
Remember how far we walked from Lido to HMV?
when it was quite near?
I wanted to spent more time talking with you so i deroute
to the furthest way i can.
Remember u called me that night just to thank me.


I wonder if u can remember all these as there are many more unwritten memories.
What i'd like to say is that ur still in my heart,
And i dun wanna forget all these sweet memories.






al-azim

|[ el mariachi | 7:01:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

alexandria

I am in love with ALEXANDRIA.
actually, i am seriously attracted to indonesian girls.
(as in Indonesian citizens not singaporean indonesian =P)
The white and pure face, the innocent smile, the sweet grin, the attractive laugh.


I think i have an indon fethish..
hahahahahhaha..


actually, today our topic will be on friends and love.
it will be a short one.
yeah u must be thinking, AGAIN he talks about love.
But hey, do read this.
My post will be quite interesting.


Well, firstly, when i'm in love, I'll love her not really because of
who the gal is. Its because of who i am when i'm with her.
I will feel so different, vibrant and energised although my love is not returned.
I just love the feeling of giving love and knowing your in love.


I believe that noone is worth my tears , even if she is, she will never make you cry.


ANd i realise that the worst way to miss someone is when you can contact the person,
you have the number, you can meet anytime, but you just cant have them.


I believe this is God's willing, HE purposely makes us meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one ,
So that when we finally meet the right one, we will be so grateful.


Its just like being sad first, then when ur happy, u'll appreaciate life.
Rather than , being happy, then sad, and u'll curse your life.


And finally, whatever happens, happens for a reason. So dun be sad, maybe the one you lose isn’t the right one for you. You’ll definitely find someone better. =P

|[ el mariachi | 7:10:00 PM ]|

Sunday, April 30, 2006

scar

I learnt not to judge sum1 by their first impression.
Sometime, first impressions are just a cover.
Its like a mask.
In order to knopw sum1 well,
u need to take out that mask.
and see things from the surface.
I learnt to forgive ppl.
But one thing bad about me is that,
I can never forget.
It must be an inheritance from my grandmother.
She can forgive, lead life normally but
once there is a scar, it will still be a scar no matter how u hide it with clothes/make-up.

|[ el mariachi | 11:40:00 PM ]|

jurong hi-tech...

Right now, as i m listening to sad songs,
Memories keep rushing to my mind.
And i cant stop them.
The same old tune keep playing again and again.
I am remembered of my miserable past.
But of course, not entirely miserable.
there are also sweet incidences.


I suddenly recall my working life in JHT.
Jurong Hi-tech.
They way we used to hate this auntie.
Initially, everyone was saying she acted like a supervisor.
We hated her like hell.
We sabotaged her.
We purposely came late to get her get scolding.
We inform our supervisor when she fall asleep.
We let her get caught redhanded, all those things which she didnt want us to do, she did.


But tears rolled down my cheek as i recall what happened on my last day of work.
She actually shared money with her colleague,
To get me a gift.
It wasnt an ordinary gift,
It was an expensive perfume.
Till now, i still have the box in which it was packed in.
U never knew that sum1 u hate may turn out to be the sweetest thing u ever had.

|[ el mariachi | 11:35:00 PM ]|

My dear friends

I dunno whether i should say this.
Its just that i think i'm drifting apart from my buddies.
The people whom i spent half my life with.
The people who were there for me every single time without fail.
I'll feel so helpless without them.

Recently, since i started school and work,
it seems that i am too busy to meet them.
Adding on to it, i am busy with NCC.
Currently, i am involve in NDP.
And i have training every Saturdays.

Damn, i'm such a loser.
I promise to dedicate a day every week to meet up with them
Only then, i can put aside some quality time for them.
And for my band.
I promise to be dedicated.

|[ el mariachi | 11:23:00 PM ]|

Polling Day, 6th May

Choose your Own leader!

|[ el mariachi | 12:27:00 PM ]|

Saturday, April 29, 2006

white cat

Hey Hey... I'm not a kid.. and i am not as inexperienced as you think.. I can filter out excuses from reasons..


Imagine having a cat. A furry white cat. You loved it alot. You shower it with love. but one day, ur cat came home dirty and its white fur turned black.
At the same time, You saw a black cat. You realised it was prettier although it was black. hahahahaha..
and you were too lazy to keep the white cat and threw it away. But why? Dun you realise you can just wash it and make it clean again?


hahahahahhahahahaha... well well well.. THis is the most stupidest entry ever. but yet it means the most coz what i cant say, i typed.


Will a police officer takes bribes? Yes, he would do so, if he is not loyal and not truthful to his uniform.
now i ask, Will a husband cheat on his wife?


Imagine ur a businessman, you formed a joint company with your friend. A partnership. You just formed the company.. then suddenly ur friend offers you to be the CEO of her company and the business is doing way better than ur company. Would you take the offer?

|[ el mariachi | 7:30:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

disfigured

Grey clouds take over again and it starts to rain everyday. It just aint normal. I do not feel at home anymore when i am at home. I feel alienised. I do not really know why. Why is it always the case? I cant seem to know why.. The word why has been appearing many times, The leter Y too.. something strange is happening. The world iS going to be attack bY strangers. A big truck approached just as you were reaching the other side of the road. Ur handphone dies when u need to call the police. Ur icecream dropped b4 It enters ur mouth. u lost ur left hand when u are supposed to be the RSM for NDP this year and cant hold the pace stick. U lost uR leg when u are playing soccer. U realised that u kisked too hard and ur leg flew. all your teeth drop when u were eating and u realised u swAllowed ur teeth. U were in bed but u died of car crash. U were writing when ur hands came detached. U turned around and ur Head falls off. Why do you kill insects? Why do you buy candies for small kids? why do you get attached to look for a new gal? Ur chair was broken by ur friend as he visits ur house. Drunk is a word of history. Sticks of death were their nicnames. Litting its way thru the dark. Where are the smiling teeth? Will the Sun last?

|[ el mariachi | 10:49:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

First

First day of work
Working with Lange that day was fun. Learnt everything about ice-blended. Worked till closing and had a transport back home. The driver was insane. He wass driving at around 120-140km/h but he wasnt really looking in front. He was busy with his hp. Damn, i was scared that would have been my first and last day of work. But all was well. (although i wore jeans) :p


First NDP Training
Went to Marsiling Jetty the night before and spent half the night there. Then we chilled at the coffee shop. And i could remember this drunk guy approaching Tasha. Then we took the first bus and chill at Civic Centre. Headed straight to HQ for NDP Trg.
The Cadets were ok. Except for a few, Sec Ones. I cant believe they are so lucky to get to join NDP in Sec 1. THeir drills sucks to the core. Overall, didnt had much fun as their response wasnt good. I prefer the Part Bs, Part C very dull.


First entrance to CLT CLUB
ALthough i was a CLT for 1 yr 5 months already, I have never been to the CLT CLUB. We went there after NDP and played CS.


First GIG performance
COuldnt believe my band finally played a GIG. All thanks to Khairi for recommending us. The Organiser told us that we were supposed to reach at 3pm. But waited for Khairi and fixxer. They were VERY late. We arrived at the Studio at 430pm. But guess what, we werent late at all.
The Gig was supposed to start at 5pm and we were the first Band. lol. Played OASIS' songs.
kinda cool. It Seemed that we were the First band to play oasis at that GIG.


First day in school
I cant believe now second year already.
Supposed to start at 8am till 5pm.
But in the end, ended at 2pm.
And best of all, we didnt study anything. Just introduction and go off.
Cool.
Met Khairi and Syazwan in school, Fidaae and faizal too.
After soo long, meet up with my poly friends again.


So many Firsts. this was what happened. need to know about my feelings, visit my Poem BLog
http://stoveygek.blogspot.com

|[ el mariachi | 12:49:00 AM ]|

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Swiss Serenade

Swiss Serenade was beautiful.
Especially the Combo Band.
Its sad to know that that would be their last performance. And that it was the last time i get to see my Swiss friends in their uniform. The unique No.2 Uniform that the swiss has was their identity.
THe first time i saw them in that uniform was the start of Operation "Paprik"
And now, the last time was also the end of Operation "Paprik".
Sad.
I just realise that i have to move on.


And yeah, the combo band was marvellous.
Their singing was outstanding.
I can already imagine them being popular one day.
Being a succesful singer.
Well, I can just HOPE they would remember me.
It was an honour knowing them.
Greetings Hanliang, Nas`, Paula, Jolene, Zhihao, Vanessa and the rest.
I didnt regret knowing you for at least a year already.
But Hanliang, Of course i knew you more than that.
;)


I am really speechless.
I cant forget the performance.
If u were worried it didnt turn out well..
Well IT DID.
GOnna miss u.
Keep in touch.

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Saturday, April 08, 2006

SADIQ BDAE MESSAGE

HAPPY BDAE SADIQ

I would like to toast to a close friend of mine
who was once my Bestest friend.
I said once coz now we seldom meet.
And that our beliefs arent similar anymore.
But Still,
Ur my close friend.
I admit we have had many conflicts.
And cross beliefs.
I am being me and you being you.
Sadiq,
Ur a friend i'd wish to keep till old age.
I am not being hyprocitic.
I am typing everything straight from my heart.
Yes, I have seen a lot about you.
Ur habits and way of speaking is also noted.
I accept you the way u r but feel u can be better.
Without you,
life woudnt be as interesting.
My dear friend,
I respect the way u deal with relationships.
The way you love.
The sincerity u have.
And the courage for doing whatever ur heart says.
There is no doubt u r committed when it comes to love.
Keep it up but remember.
Think before doing it.
be more rationale.
I am not reprimanding or discouraging you.
But as a friend,
I realise the pros and cons of it.
U might not agree with me.
But soon you will realise.
Anyway,
Lets forget the bad history we had.
Lets relive the joy and fun we had in 2001 and 2002.
Yes..
You have changed since then.
We drifted apart.
Now its 2006.
Yesh its great we are still comminucating.
And i dun take you for granted.
I have never forgotten the things we used to do.
The laughter we had.
And thiose times where i always go your house.
ANd the way your mom used to call me when u r back late.
The way i'd joke and play with ur younger brother.
Let this be memories.
BUT.
We can still make more memories.
I hope you can set aside our differences and see the world
as a jopurney we had travelled and will continue travelling.
Like you once said to me,
"May the force be with you"
Now i'd say, U have the force, use it well.
We'll meet again.
Forgive me if i had hurt ur feelings.
I'd like to begin the journey from where i left it.
Lets make use of our lives.
And yesh, HAPPY BDAE ONCE AGAIN.
Do read ur mail as i have also emailed you.
The reason i email is because i have no other way to contact you.
Ur buddy and once best friend
(tat if u think so)
Azim.

|[ el mariachi | 12:30:00 AM ]|

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Khairi PreBdae and Bdae..!

Wednesday
~~~~~~~~~
Me Ridz and Fida met *dear* and her friends.
Love those shiny eyes.
Love staring into them.
As usual, me and my crap.
Talked about nothing for soo long.
Played a language game.
Walked at WM.
Met Joel.
Went to Lot 1.
Went back home.
^on the phone^
Met khairi at my house.
Syafiq joined after sending nata home.
Went out at around 1230am.
Wasted time at the ABC playground
Wished Khairi a happi bdae.
Met Faizal to do some legal stuff.
Syafiq slept over at my house.
Fried 2 eggs and drank horlicks.
Watched Platoon the movie.


Thursday
~~~~~~~~
Tried to wake syqfiq up from 7am to 830am.
At last SHouted at him till he woke up.
HAPPY BDAE KHAIRI!!!
surprised khairi at Merlion Park.
He was really happy.
Great to hear that.
Went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner.
As usual,
Sukhie bought coke bottle from Cheers and they bought ice.
Drank illegal drink.
Went to Merlion Park to chill again with
Sukhie, Lange, Iman, Khairi.
Went home.
Finally.

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Friday, March 31, 2006

BAKAR BDAE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAKAR!
Bakar is my Close friend cum brother.
Great advices.
But i do think he can be more serious.
His hobby, disturbing and teasing people.
Especially Sadiq.
We had lots of memories together.
WIll never Forget him no matter what.
Keep in touch Frontman.
I hope the band still exists.


Went to Riverside OC rehearsal.
Well, I am the 2IC planner with
Daven the OIC.


The whole parade was planned by me.
Audited by the school's HODs.


Met Fidaae in Riverside.
Then went to meet Khairi and Ridzman at CWP
(CausewayPoint)


I went home and as i come online,
She came online.
Weeee!


I was supposed to meet Faizal @ 930pm.
But instead went at 1030pm
as i am happily chatting with her
and doing some work at the same time.
Now i got her blog addie..
more ways of communication.


Farah smsed asking if i want
to go the Swiss Winds serenade thing.
hahaha.
I already am going!
Thanks to dear Nas.
Buying 3 tickets from her.
Meeting her tomorrow to pay.
Long time no see.


Well until next time..
Do read my poem Blog oso
the links is on the left hand side.
under MY POETRY

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Camp Feast Live Range Compassvale

Finally at home enjoying..
had Camp Feast
(Sunday 25/03 - Tuesday 27/03)
then wednesday had live range.
Then thursday went to Campassvale Sec.


Camp Feast was memorable.
At first i was the Company OIC.
but Nury and Zahariah didnt came.
So i had to be PC.
But i didnt regret..
I seriously didnt..


My platoon was great!
Troop 2 will always be the best.
Of course lah, i am the PC.
Fidaae the APC..
Ridzman the advisor..
hahaha..


But that wasnt what that made me happy.
Well, for those who know,
Great!
For those who dun..
U'll find out why..
I met an actress.
Thats cool too..
She was in my platoon.
What an honour.
hahahahaha.


I think its happening again.. (:


Live Range..
went with Ridzman Fidaae Tarmidzie and the rest
25m range..
Where else can you shoot an AR 15?
cool


Compassvale sec.
Went with Ridzman and Khairi
Disappointing.
Imagine a Girl Guide in an NCC Room
Scolding or rather mocking
an NCC S/CLT.


and a Girl Guide and Netball player
Holding or rather using the NCC Sword..
What a Dishonour.
Worst stil,
They'll be wearing our Sea Number 1 uniform.


who the Fuck are they?




Met the overnight crew for dinner just now.
I will b=never forget them..
Peace Out!
Hail Hitler!
*3fingerzup*

|[ el mariachi | 1:12:00 AM ]|

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Affirmation and and Merlion

Finally,
Affirmation Ceremony 2006 is over.
It was the first time SEA is taking PA.
Being the chairman of
Communication, PA System,
Multi-Media Recording & Presentation Committee
wasnt easy.


I am not only in charge of the PA, but also,
the walkie talkies.
And worst still, 3 spare batteries were missing.


The person i assigned to take charge of the walkies
was Jeremy.


besides that, the Pa went smoothly.
The videos were played at the rite time.
The songs were played on time.
All the mistakes was treated profesionally until
it was impossible to spot.


Everything went on well..



the day before, friday were the rehearsals.
Didnt went home,
Walked to marina square to bowl
then to the Merlion opp
Esplanade to chill.


Uncle Sukhbir
Raimi
Farah
Hassan
Fidaae
Mardiana
Khai with Sad,
Syafiq with Natasha.




K, i am having Camp Feast later. Wont be home till Tuesday.
Until next time.

|[ el mariachi | 11:39:00 AM ]|

Sunday, March 19, 2006

WAR

Watched a movie called 'Platoon'
It depicts the story of the vietnam war.
My comments?
I do not want a war.


Humans change due to their circumstances.
And during hard times,
the change is more drastic.
Be it positively or negatively.


People kill each other
rather than fighting their enemies.
Why?
They are too dominant and egoistic.


Girls like to stereotype
us men as egoistic creatures..
In this movie, YES they are right.


I would never want to have a civil war.
Raping of villagers, killing of children,
Killing each other.
Are these humane?


Is this what war is about?


Ironically, IF there is a war,
I would be more than ready to serve the country.
But it shall first depend on the reason.
the motive of having war.


I am up for it.
But the thought of it makes me feel like crying.
I dont think u get what i mean but
You will understand one day.

|[ el mariachi | 12:19:00 AM ]|

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Move On

We can only plan our lives.
GOD decides what happens.
We put in effort.
GOD decides the outcome.


I always tell my friends this
when they have a problem.


The most heartbreaking problem
is when the problem is right in front of you
and you can do nothing about it but to forget it.


No. U r not running away from ur problems.
You are trying to make things better
by looking at it from a further angle.


Its not ur fault and ur not the one losing.
Take it as a learning experience.
It will be very useful,
Maybe not to urself,
but for others to learn as well.


Just be strong and take it as God's test.
Maybe u are missing this chance because
there is something better out there waiting for you.


Its just a matter of time before u get the right one.
dont let problems of the past affect ur future.


Yes, U might be thinking,
" I am still loyal to it "


But c'mon.
U gotta to move on.
Being loyal means doing anything for
the good of the owner.


By moving on,
U are giving some space for the owner.
And letting the owner have happiness
which u might not be able to give.
It can be owner of anything.
In this case,
Owner of ur heart.


A true gentleman will do anything to make a lady happy.
And at all times respect a lady's decision.
Therefore,
Let it go and move on.


MAy God Bless You.




ps... all the quotes in this entry were originally from my brain.

|[ el mariachi | 12:29:00 AM ]|

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Work!

Today is the only day i get to rest at home after so long.
I cant wait for all of these to end.
Then i can start earning money.
My target - start working in april and use $235 of my first pay to buy
an electric guitar.
Then i carry on working for my expenses.


Well, its not that i have no money,
Its just that i have only enough money for my daily needs.
No spare.
I buy clothes once a year(during hari raya)
Shoes, two years once..
What else?


And now, even my mom is working.
So i think i should do my part and help contribute again
like last time.
But yeah, cant work now..
busy with NCC.


Therefore i have vowed to work right after Camp Feast.
Then can buy Nas' serenade ticket.
Coz got money..
and can buy my electric guitar.
Can buy new shoes.
etc etc


And yeah, hafiz is buying an electric bass.
Soon, hopefully we can jam at home..
yeah..


k peace.

|[ el mariachi | 3:43:00 PM ]|

Sunday, March 05, 2006

March Schedule

I am spending most of my March outside.
Here is my schedule for march..
If ya wanna meet me,
look for dates with nothing on.


01 March - Riverside Secondary Opening Ceremony Rehearsal
03 March - Maths Exam / Affirmation Committee Meeting
04 March - AKE training
05 March - Jamming
06 March - Spec Course Briefing
07 March - Drawing of uniform(5J)/ Affirmation Meeting
08 March - Riverside Secondary Opening Ceremony Rehearsal
09 March - Affirmation AOP Presentation
11 March - Affirmation AOP Final Presentation
13 March - Specialist Course
14 March - Specialist Course / Affirmation Dry run
15 March - Specialist Course
16 March - Specialist COurse
17 March - Specialist COurse
18 March - Specialist COurse
22 March - Hilmi Chalet
23 March - Hilmi Chalet / book in for affirmation
24 March - Affirmation Rehearsal
25 March - Affirmation Ceremony
26 March - Camp Feast Instructor Night
27 March - Camp Feast
28 March - Camp Feast


Not hectic enuf?
Although i am having my holidays
I feel as though i am working
but without a salary.
Charity Work.
hahahaha.
Never felt worse.

|[ el mariachi | 11:33:00 AM ]|

Friday, March 03, 2006

My dreams crashed

I thought of cyling this weekend.
all the way to town..


BUT!!!........


I was at the library,
Studying with Sat,
My mom called and asked


" Did you bring your bicycle to the library? "


And i replied,


" Nope, i took bus"


I thought my brother took it.
But then i realise,
How could he?
I brought my key with me.
ANd i had made sure i locked the bike.
I still remember yesterday,
I wanted to cycle but i realise it was lock
and my key was in the house.
SO i did not bring my bike along.


Damn it man,
My bike was stolen, again.
I still remember WooBlo,
My first bike.
Now WooBlo 2 is gone too.
there goes my dreams of cycling far away.
What a luck!
And i have no money to buy a new bike.


Wanted to work, but too busy with NCC.
3 quarter of my March is taken by NCC.
And i cant Work!!!


What a luck..
hey wait, i never had good luck...


NVM LET IT PASS....
no point thinking of it.
Now i cant cycle.


May the person who stole my bike
suffer...
(coz i got no brakes
my tyre's worn out,
and the bike is heavy,
and the bike is dirty)
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
trying to make myslef smile..
but worthless..


May we all do well for our exams..
despite the luck we have.

|[ el mariachi | 12:08:00 AM ]|

Monday, February 27, 2006

Sentosa. Work. NCC.

Went to Sentosa Finally,
6 of us only, but had quite some fun.
Damn, i almost lost my specs.
It fell in the water when i dived from the bridge,
Luckily, Hazwan found it,
Phew..
I couldnt afford to lose it.
NO MONEY TO BUY NEW ONE.


tats why, i need a job..
Went a couple of interviews just now.
But all sales job..
I have 0% confident to do sales.
Although i love to talk to strangers..
hahaha..
But i hate commision based jobs.
Prefer those fix pays..
But yeah, cannot be too choosy, so i went.


This friday Bmaths paper,
I feel complacent.
I am not even practicing.
Its just tat i am too confident..
hahaha..
I only need around 60++ to get A..
Yeah!
Feeling great!
Cant wait to reactivate myself for ncc.
I dedicate my holidays fully to Ncc!


BUT WAIT!
I need money,
although NCC pay me,
I am not interested in the NCC money,
I go NCC not for the money.
Its for the passion.
:)
I hope i can be fully commited but i got school.
And education needs to come first,
But if it doesnt clash, i will surely go NCC.
Ok,, an to Khairi, Congrats..
:) You noe i knoe enuf k?
hahahahahahahahaha

|[ el mariachi | 11:32:00 PM ]|

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Happi Bdae Astro.

today, another one of my friend turns 18.
Legalised.
Well.. happy bdae Astro
SEE YOU AT SENTOSA

|[ el mariachi | 12:00:00 AM ]|

Friday, February 24, 2006

Cylce to Bukit Panjang From Woodlands

Faizal couldnt make it just now.
I met bakar at 1am at fushan garden.
We went to shell to pump our bikes.
From Shell, we only took exactly 5 minutes
to reach marsiling MRT.
But of course, at full speed.


We stopped to get a drink at 7 11
then continued our journey to kranji MRT.
15 minutes and we were there.
We had planned to cycle to Bukit Panjang.
SO we carried on from there.


But long the way, at around 2am, we saw a signboard.
"KRANJI WAR MEMORIAL CEMETERY"
and guess what, we realised it was thursday night
or better known as malam juma'at.
And our fear took over.
so we turned back and rested t kranji MRT.


then at 4.40am, where there were many cars,
We carried on cycling.
This time non stop.
Went in WOodlands road and cycled all the way.
The road was quite stretchy.


we just cycled without talking.
Then when the road was silent for a while,
We heard a voice from a lane on our left.
Followed by a dog barking.
But when we looked inside there were noone.
we just ignored and carried on.


Then we came to a releve when we saw a signboard,
"BUKIT PANJANG"
We cycled up till Upp Bukit Timah road and went to
Block 605 Bukit Panjang to take a rest.
We reached Bukit panjang at exactly 5.05am.
therefore it took us only 25 minutes from kranji MRT.


Total time taken,
From fushan to shell,
3 minutes
from shell to Marsiling Mrt,
5 minutes
from Marsiling MRT to Kranji MRT,
15 minutes
from Kranji MRT to Ten Mile Junction,
25 minutes
Total time taken,
48 minutes.


The trip back took us 1 hour 45 minutes.
reason? bakar's bicycle pedal came off
and he had to walk.
So i cycled very slowly.


Then went to Woodgrove al-ameen to eat.
Went to bakar's house.
At around 2++pm, Faizal, Haikal and Sadiq came there.
Went to my house to chill.
It was already around 5++pm
and i havent got the chance to sleep since last night.
Adding on to it, the trip there was quite tiring.


Oh ya, one thing worth mentioning,
TOday,
SADIQ came to my house for the VERY FIRST TIME
after knowing him for 6 years.
he's my only friend that never came to my house before.


Ok, as i am writing this, its 1105pm.
And i still havent sleep since last night,
I got a class outing tomorrow at sentosa.
But FUCK!
now people start to flood my hp
saying they cant make it.
Why do they have to back out at the very last minute?!
I am so fucked up man.
The initial plan was around 28 of us.
But now, only 6 can make it.
And the person who's suppose to bring soccer ball
for us to play never even took the initiative to call
me and at least say he cant make it.
THis fucker had to wait for me to call him up at 1045pm
then he told me.
Messaged since morning didnt reply.
Fucker.
Now no ball play what?
Yes you know who u are.
K i am to0 lazy to talk about this.


Peace Out

|[ el mariachi | 10:45:00 PM ]|

Thursday, February 23, 2006

summary of future events.

One paper left.
THen my exams will be over.
but this particular paper is no threat for me.
Its Amaths.
Yeah, i know i failed amaths for my o levels.
But now i kinda love maths.
Thanks to a good teacher i have,
Ms Sharon Quek.


THe way she teach,
very down to earth but professional.
therefore i have no worries.
I can at least get a B if not A.


Went to starbucks at holland V
to teach SAT maths just now.
Then went down to coffee bean,
khai's workplace,
to eat dinner.
not coz i rich,
but bcoz its free.


Now i am waiting to go out to cycle.
will update you on where we're going tonight..
FInally my bike is fully loaded.
havent been cycling for quite a while.


This saturday will be my class first outing.
SO 1b/02 guys and gals,
Dun be late.
Sentosa here we come.

|[ el mariachi | 10:19:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Selamat Tahun Baru/Happy New Year

U must be thinking i am referring to Chinese New year rite?
Well, not exactly.
Today also marks the start of a New Year in the Muslim Calendar.
Today's date is 1 Muharram 1427.


I would like to take this oppurtunity to wish those who are
unaware of this special day.


We have a public holiday for two days here.
Monday and Tuesday.
But in Malaysia, because of the awal Muharam,
they have one week holiday.
Aint it nice to have a holiday when celebrating New Year?
1st January is a holiday.
Chinese New Year is a holiday( in fact 2 days )


Hari Raya Puasa fell on a thursday last year.
But i still remember,
I have to go to school on the following day.
My second day of raya was spent in school.


Whilst, Chinese new year falls on Sundaay and Monday,
So why Tuesday holiday?


Ok. I shant start a debate here.
Just sharing my disagreements.
BUt what to do?
The world is never a fair place.

|[ el mariachi | 4:24:00 AM ]|

Friday, January 20, 2006

I am so redundant

Are you feeling feeling of not getting what u always want?
Are you feeling disappointed although u never knew the answer?
Are you feeling so lost and u think there's noone there for you?
Are you feeling so jealous coz u havent found the right person?
Are you feeling so scared that you would fail again?
Are you feeling worried coz u got nothing but ur heart to give?
Are you hoping ur luck would change just like that?
Are you hoping that u could solve the matters of the heart?
Are you hoping that u can forget everything redundant on ur mind?
Are you hopping that one day ur prince charming would pick u up?
Are you hoping that it won't be one sided?


Well, i am feeling it.

|[ el mariachi | 12:55:00 AM ]|

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Appreciate what you have

One day . . . a wealthy family man took his son on a trip to the country, so he could have his son see how poor country people live.


They stayed one day and one night in the home of a very humble farmer. At the end of the trip, and when they were back home, the father asked his son, "What did you think of the trip?"


The son replied, "Very nice dad."


Then the father asked his son, "Did you notice how poor they were?"


The son replied, "Yes."


The father continued asking, "What did you learn?"


The son responded, "I learned that we have one dog in our house, and they have four.


Also, we have a fountain in our garden, but they have a stream that has no end.


And we have imported lamps in our garden . . . where they have the stars!


And our garden goes to the edge of our property. But they have the entire horizon as their back yard!"


At the end of the son's reply the father was speechless.


His son then said, "Thank you dad for showing me how poor we really are."


Isn't it true that all depends on the lens you use to see life?


One can ask himself what would happen if we give thanks for what we have instead of always asking for more.


Learn to appreciate what you have. Wealth is all in one's point of view.

|[ el mariachi | 9:16:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Times we were together

On this special day,
My friend who live closest to me
celebrates his birthday.
At last, One of my close friends have turned 18.
We, the 6 + 2 have been close since 2003.
started with 2 in each clique.
Then all the 2s came together and form us.
Although the usual one is 6,
the 2 will never be left out.


Faizal, the eldest amongst all of us,
is someone of strong patience.
He is more of defence than attack.
more of take than give.
hahaha..


Although he is the eldest,
Morally, Bakar is our Leader.
He is naturally a leader.
not to mention, he is the second eldest.


Our group has done many things together,
many stupid things.
Namely,
Blowing up a drain,
literally blowing up.
as in the bomb type of blowing up.
With Gas cannisters and fire.
Its True! we did it.
no doubt.


The drain was like 3 metres deep.
not like the normal smelly drains.
It was brand new cemented covered drain.
We soaked up a sofa with gas fluid
and fitted in a couple of gas cannisters
and started the flame.
We then stood from far and watched it blow.
The flame was like 7-8 metres high and it was amazing.
I know what u might think.
Stupid.
But who else would do it but us?
its a memory of a lifetime.
We stopped doing it since the drain was locked by the police.


We also used to frequent our normal chilling spot,
the hill, Jalan Trolley, Pondok, Fushan Garden
All these were memories and i wished i kept it in pictures form.
But we were poor, no camera phones then.


Jalan trolley was discovered by us when we walked home from school.
Our school was at Sembawang as we renovated our old site.
And from Sembawang, we walked home to woodlands almost everyday.
Then we discovered this canal.
And there was a trolley nearby.
So foolishly we threw it down.
And thus it was named Jalan Trolley.


The hill is situated at Woodlands Town East Garden near the stadium.
We used to go there to relax plus spa.
not the spa as in the girly spa.
Spa as in friendly fights.


Pondok is located at admiralty avenue 6 near bakar's old house.
There was the hanging spot in 2003 when we didnt go for terawikh.
used to hang around there for a while until Bakar shifted.


Another thing we did was cycle.
We cycled together to Sembawang Park many times.
all before our O levels.
We even cycled to Yishun, Seletar and Kranji reservoir.
Kranji, Marsiling, Woodlands, Sembawang and Yishun
is like nothing to us.
We can name anything on its way.




Well thats definitely not all.
But the rest have faded from my memory.
I hope these will not.
I know we were bad, but we arent really that bad.
Well, now things changed.
We havent been meeting as frquent as the past.
Well, We are separated somehow.
I hope memories spent within us Brothers will
Be cherished.
and Faizal, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
May u get what u always wanted,
U deserved it.


Yours Sincerely,
Stoveygek

|[ el mariachi | 12:00:00 AM ]|

Friday, January 06, 2006

Shaikh.

This year, i have 3 months left before i end my first year.
I will start my holidays officially om March 5th till April 16th.
For the 2005 O level students who wish to join SP,
School will begin on 17th April.
No more long holdays like i did.
My Poly term started on 31st May last year,

Well, my main purpose of posting today
is actually to wish my very special friend happy bdae.
Well, I think i kinda pissed him off.
He called me and asked me " Dya know what day it is today?"
And all i did was said yes.
Well, its not that i didnt wanna wish him.
Its all planned out.
I wanted to be the last to wish him.
at 1159 sharp.
but he called me at 1130pm.
Now i really dunno wat to do.
I shall just carry on with my plan.
Well, I wish You HAPPY 17th Bdae Shaikh Yasin.

|[ el mariachi | 11:59:00 PM ]|

Friday, December 30, 2005

here comes 2006

December is ending,
So is 2005.
Well. I have no regrets.
2005 has been a gd year for me!
I get to meet Great People who have
changed my perception on life.
THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE MADE ME HAPPY

A new chapter will soon begin.
I cant wait to end my first year in Poly.
many things have changed.
But my heart hasnt,
Still the stubborn one.

Well, school is starting again.
I m gonna miss my regular online hours.
But ya'll can still catch me online at night.
I m nocturnal
I sleep in class and online at night.
hahahahahahahaha..

In 2005,
my inspiring motto was,
"Always follow ur heart"

I will still keep that in mind, but my 2006 motto is,
"Play a waiting game, Dun show ur cards"
But i know somw will peep.

To those who understand, good,
those those who don't,
ask me, and i'll explain.
I gotta say, I am a complicated person.

Alright then,
HAPPY NEW YEAR

with love,

|[ el mariachi | 4:05:00 PM ]|

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Inspiring

TO ALL: READ THIS

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty."


Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."


Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."


After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter" ... and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.


At the second tree a woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.


When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree so I'll take this one", and he cut it down.


When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for. The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.


Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.


Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.


Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.


The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

|[ el mariachi | 12:53:00 AM ]|

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

B-O-R-E-D

Finished all my homework
except for GEMS which i dun intend to do
Checked my mail,friendster,mafiaboss
Ate my meals, chocolates, lolipops, crackers
Played my guitar for hours,
Cleaned my room, rearranged the positions.
Mopped the house, washed the toilet.
Paid all my utilities bill
Noone to chat with on MSN, they went offline
No games to play, just reformatted my com.
No movies to watch, no DVDs, VCDs
Cant watch TV, my family's watching an uninteresting show
No friends to go out to,some working/went ice skating/went to town; without me.
Noone to call and chat with, not anymore.
Noone to sms, they sure wont reply.


FUCK IT!
I've got nothing to do!!!!!!!
Please enlighten me someone.

|[ el mariachi | 9:07:00 PM ]|

Monday, December 26, 2005

Muhammadiyah Welfare Home

When everyone is enjoying their Christmas holiday,
I am sacrificing my rest to do a charitable deed.
There's a fiesta at Muhammadiyah Welfare Home.
A fund raising project for their new home.

Me and my classmates set up a games stall.
Our game was simple but difficult.
You just have to throw darts.
And hit the cards arranged.

The prizes were sponsored.
There's a BIG banana man and a small one and many others.
I can bet you we are the most charitable stall.
We give out prizes to everyone,
We even give those who just walk by our stall.
And we not only give one,
We give all that we have.
hahaha.

Had some fun,
Free coupons.
But most of all, we did charity.
I am soo tired now.
just had to post this for memories.
Well, this blog is meant for me to keep memories.
Lets hope this blog can last until i am gone from this world.

|[ el mariachi | 12:35:00 AM ]|

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

HTML and Webpages

Instead of doing my e-learning assignments,
I spent the whole afternoon trying to do my
own HTML code for my webpages.

As you can see on the left, I have 4 webpages,
Well, if you include this, then 5.
Its not that i am greedy.
I just explored and found many free-webhosts.

But if you realise, Besides my two blogspots,
none of the rest of the webpages are working.
I plan to work on it by this year.
Well, i do have 10 days left.

I have modified this blog a little.
Added things here and there.
Hopefully it looks neater now.
I also deleted many of my links.

k lah. and i will try to update more meaningful entries.

|[ el mariachi | 6:07:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Onboard Superstar Virgo

i realised something,
I never mention anything about me going on a cruise rite?
Hmm. just wanted to share it with you.
I was selected based on my results.


From the 23rd to 26th October,
I was literally onboard SuperStarVirgo.
It was Fucking nice i tell you.
FOr once in my whole damn life,
I felt like a rich man.


It was during the fasting month.
But tell you a secret.
I didnt fast!
How can u resist a 5 meal a day treat.
Its free!
U can just go to the restaurant at the serving times and eat all u want.
ANd its Buffet!
and the food all fucking high class.
Different restaurant serve different food.
THe restaurant i went to most is the North Indian one.
Coz got cake. many many types.


Actually, not fasting isnt wrong. as we are travelling in the middle of the ocean,
We are considered as musafir.
So its not wrong not to fast. but still have to pay back.


but thats not the point.
We got down at Phuket for shopping.
FUck! things are so fucking cheap.
Imagine a cigarete costs about 10 bucks in singapore.
But at phuket, it costs a dollar seventy cents only for the same brand.
And chewing gum are like 20 cents?
How i wish i lived there.


But one thing that scares me is that,
The place in Phuket that i went was Patong Beach.
ANd to those who do not know,
Its where Tsunami hit.
Thats a scary fact.
To be where the hundreds died.
But nevertheless, i had fun.


then back onboard,
Me and my clique sat outside at the deck.
Singing loudly and sounded like a boyband.
hahaha.
THe wind was Fucking nice.
Its so strong that it could blow me away.
I was afraid i would fly off.
COz its nearly impossible to walk against it.


Then we went to the disco.
Goodness, i can go in.
THey dun check identity.
had fun on the dance floor.
hehehe.


For 4 days 3 nights, i think we didnt had enough.
I cant forget the course meals, the disco.
THe party, Phuket, the free movies, having ur own airconned cabin.
Waking up at ur own timing.
Noone there to mark ur attendance.
(I woke up late everyday and went for lectures late)
All the joy.
Just like a rich man.

it was worth it lah.
More of a holiday thingie than a school trip.
I really enjoyed myself.
Now, back on land,
I feel poor again.
:(

|[ el mariachi | 11:02:00 PM ]|

Saturday, December 10, 2005

50th CLT POP

Once again..
a major thing has happened.
thats why i am blogging.
well u see..


Yesterday was the 50th CLT POP.
Thats when the new batch of CLTs passes out.
And among the CLts passing out are,
khairi, ahmad, and fidaee.


And guess what, I am the sea flag bearer.
Seriously.
I am supposed to be part of the colors party
and march in with the NCC SEA flag.


Its like such a pressure for me.
Representing the whole Sea Units.
ANy mistakes made would be too obvious.
Worst of aLL,
I was in the front row.


Yeah, I was the one wearing aLL white in front.
That's my NO.1 uniform.
I've always believe that NCC SEA/NAVY has the most nicest No.1
ALL white. shoes, pants and shirt.
Very pure and virtuous.
And yeah its over now.


And best of it all.
I actually met Nas for the second time ever.
ANd for her, First time.
it was just for a short while.
But worth it.
hehe..
sweetness.. :)

|[ el mariachi | 11:17:00 PM ]|

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Jalan Raya and Bmaths

Yesterday was the very first time
i actually went jalan raya with my
secondary school friends.


After 4 yrs together,
at last i managed to join them.


I never had the chance to do so in the past.
Mostly because of ncc camps.
Although this year, not many people came,
It was memorable.
Thanks to PHK.


you must be wondering who or what is PHK.
only a handful of people knows what it is.
If you're one of those who knows,
you'll get what i mean.
For those who doesnt know.
Ask those who knows,
You'll find out.


Well, i reached home at about
3am in the morning
so i skipped my morning lessons.
Only went for my Bmaths test at 1.
although i wasnt the least prepared,
i managed to score 35/40.


Bmaths, is the same as secondary Amaths.
Only that it is more detailed.
I cant believe i actually failed my amaths
for my O's,
Now i realise it aint that hard.
Wasted.
Anyway, its not really because i
was ignorant about amaths.
Its because now, the teacher
who is teaching me bmaths is very good.
Maybe its the study environment.


well.. i have reactivated my blog.
Hope i wont have to unnecesarily deactivate it again.

|[ el mariachi | 3:00:00 AM ]|

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Cycled to Kranji Reservoir

On October 7th (Piley's Bdae)


I met bontor at the bicycle shop.
Had to change the back tyre of my bike.
He paid all of it.
Then we met Bulu under his block.
Cycled to Marsiling MRT.
Waited for baqaro to finish his prayers.


Bontor brought a street directory along.
We planned our route.
Bulu bought drinks and snacks.
I bought prata.
lol
was hungry.


Baqaro came and we started cycling.
Cycled against the heavy traffic of Marsiling towards Kranji.
It was uphill all the way.
Damn it was tiring.
The time showed 2240
We carried on cycling.
Bulu was heavy as he had lots of bulu
So he was last.
Bontor led us.


Then we approached this junction.
Damn, the lights were so dim.
There were no pedestrian.
The roads were full of busses.
There was Kranji bus depot nearby.


Then we passed by a train track.
Literally train.
U know keretapi?
Not MRT.


We cycled deeper in and at last made a turn.
after all the travelling it was only 2320.
I got tired.
We cycled a bit more and crossed a bridge.
I was shocked.
We made it!


We stopped a while at the bridge.
On my left was Singapore
On my right, Johor.
We were surrounded by waters.


Went further up and turned to a park.
We sat down and talked.
I didnt believe we made it.
Cycled 4.5km from Marsiling and finally reached.
The night was so quiet.
One hour journey.
Then Baqaro realised,
We were damn slow.
4.5km/hr.
that was our speed.
Imagine if we walked.


We sat and ate while glazing at the sea
separating Singapore and Malaysia.
This was the furthest trip i made on my bike.
Well not for them though.
They have cycled to Seletar.
Further, 8.5km.
Well. I don't think i wanna cycle so far anymore,
I will wait till i have my bike, motorbike.
Then i can go anywhere i want.
cool..

|[ el mariachi | 11:49:00 PM ]|

Saturday, October 08, 2005

to the spammers

I have no time to update.
Just wanna say thank you to the childish spammer(s)
who flood my
tagboard.
THank you for making my blog lively.

|[ el mariachi | 4:14:00 AM ]|

Monday, October 03, 2005

Indemnity form

no job,
no school(currently)

Isnt that cool?
Nope it isnt.

no job=no cash

I am no more getting allowance since the fasting month is starting.
In fact in 2 more days.
I cant wait.

Going to school later to submit my indemnity form.
It'll be the last time i can eat in the school's foodcourt.
The next time i am going back to school is on the 17th.
Like i said, indemnity form.
Havent heard about the form since the last time which is
Camp Pinnacle.

Camp Pinnacle was damn fun.
Met many friends there.
My first airplane ride was during Camp Pin.
Got to take a Foker 50 plane all over the Southern and eastern part of Singapore.
Also, got to take a ferry around the Straits of Malacca.

This time round,
the indemnity form is for a 4 days 3 night trip
to Phuket and Penang on SuperstarVirgo.
Yesh!
was lucky to get selected.
Based on results.
Did quite well in term 1.
I cant wait.
I only have to foot 50% of the cost.
That is good enough.

Well, I will be leaving on the 23rd to 26th.
Ya i noe, its a waste since its during the fasting month.
But nonetheless, I am going to enjoy myself.

Looking forward to it already.

|[ el mariachi | 2:06:00 AM ]|

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Work! Work! Work!

I wanna work!
I cant wait to work!
I need money!
I need cash!

My holidays wil start on thursday
as on wednesday, tomorrow,
I am having my last paper.
After that, It'll be PARTY!

I am planning to start work on 1st Oct.
But there are many challenges.
Fasting starts on the 5th.
And damn,
I will be going on a cruise to Penang
and Phuket from the 23rd to 26th October.
Well, I was chosen based on my last term's results.
ANd this will be a problem to me.
1st, it requires money.
Next, I i go for the cruise, i can only work for 3 weeks.
Noone would employ just for three weeks.
So i have to lie.
Besides that,
during my holidays,
I have workshops to attend to regarding the cruise.
So i guess it'll be hard to look for a job.
But still, i am planning to join back the company
i worked with for 4 months, JHT.

|[ el mariachi | 1:18:00 PM ]|

Saturday, September 24, 2005

close to you

Have you ever had someone so close to you,
you wont wanna let go?
You must be thinking i am going to write
about some girl i like right?
Well wrong!


The very special person is my grandmother.
I am closer to her than my parents.
She is where i complain to.
She is the shoulder i cry on.


Imagine being the eldest brother
but have no moral rights.
What i mean is,
I am the eldest,
but my siblings call me by my name.
I am the eldest,
but i cant scold my siblings.
Why?
Because my sister will complain to my dad.
And my brother will complain to my mom.


My sister, the youngest among my siblings,
is closest to my dad.
Its normal.
Girls are always pampered by their dad.
My brother,
is very close to my mom.
Thats where he finds comfort in.


Me? I have noone in the house to complain to.
I have to keep all the feelings with myself
until i meet my grandmother.
Yeah, she would comfort me.


I still dun understand why,
when i scold my siblings,
i will get scolded.
Even if i scold for the right reason.
My Dad will say,
"You dunno how to talk with your Siblings is it?
Want Me to teach you?"
(raising his hand just inches from my head)


And my sis' catch phrase is,
"U touch me I tell Daddy!"
And i am like so pathetic.


I once decided that i wont scold them
and will just ignore them.
But when my brother dun score well for his exams,
My dad will say,
"As a big brother, you should guide him..."


I was like %#@$!*&^~`
But at the end of the day
I know i got someone to confide in,
My grandmother.
Being her first grandchild,
She is closest to me.
I love you grandma.

|[ el mariachi | 1:41:00 AM ]|

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Still sick

Was awaken by my coughs at 4am today.
Sat down in the middle of my hallway
and thought to myself.
Only one day left to my Electrics paper.
I have not even started a bit.
Given my sick situation.
Ot made things worse.
So i decided,
To FULLY commit myself to study.
Well plans are easy to be said,
but not laid.


CAme online at 5am.
Obviously there is noone.
I went to MIRC to see around.
Mastered a few tips
and found new channels to chat.


Boring day.
Slept in the afternoon.
Woke up and i found the missing thing.
The thing i neeed for everything!
DISCPLINE!!!
I timed myself.
1 hour 2 Units..
And It worked!
Now i have finished 6 units in 3 hours!
YES!
Left with 5 units left.
I intend to finish it tonight.
Then can do past yr exam paper.
Then can play Counterstrike!
hahahahahahaahaha.

|[ el mariachi | 7:32:00 PM ]|

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Damn Sick on the day of Exam.

Todays the day.
Its my first paper.
I feel so sick.
Well, I am sick.
It all started last night.
Sneezed for six consecutive times.
Then tada, the feeling came.
I immediately went to take a shower.
I managed to revise one last time before going to bed


When i woke up!
I HAVE NO VOICE!!!
Fuck!
I cant drink!
It just hurts.
Its not like a normal sore throat.
Its like everytime you cough, you feel so pain.
Its like contracting of muscles.
My lungs feels the most pain!


Despite that, went for my Applied Mechanics Paper
We were given 10 mins to read through.
The whole duration was 2hrs 30mins excluding the first ten minutes.
Guess what?
I couldnt do two questions.
And the rest i did,
I dunno if its right.
And most of all.
I only took 30 mins to complete a 2hr 30mins paper.
Is dat good?
Nope it isnt!
I dunno what is going to happen to that paper.
All I want is a pass.


In poly, what you need to do to get promoted to the next semester is,
PASS ALL SUBJECTS!
even if you fail one simple module,
You'll have to forward module,
This is the same as 'repeating'
Well, sucks rite?
And in order to get a good Diploma,
U'll have to score well.
Or else,
It'll just be a Supplementary Diploma
which is the same as 'just pass'
So, Its not as simple as you think.

|[ el mariachi | 7:54:00 PM ]|

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

MiRc

Woke up damn early today.
After bathing, i switched on the com.
Activated my gmail account.
I got one cause my friend says can send videos.
If that's the case,
I can save all my MTVs there.
But damn.
I tried but useless.
It'll take a century to finish sending.
But i waited.
And shortly after, a message appeared on the screen,
"Server is down, Cross your finger and try again"
I was like, wat the fuck?


went out at 9.30am.
reached Woodlands library at 9.50.
Library wasnt open.
So i waited.
At 10.02, the shutters were opened.
And there goes all the animals at the zoo.
Everyone was like running in.
Its like when u open the cage of an animal.
Well, a typical Singaporean.
Actually,
I know their reasons.
They're afraid of having no place to sit.
I share that vision.
But still.
I dun think its their fault.
They should have more benches and tables.
Maybe a specific study area.


I found myself a nice spot.
Sat joined short after.
This was like amazing.
We spent 3 hours of intensive revision.
Well, it never happened before.
The first time we concentrated that long.
What a great achievement.
But,
the exam is tomorrow,
so its more like a last minute revision.


Went home at 4pm after walking around at CWP.
Came online. Read this advertisement on MiRc.
I've heard alot abt it but never bothered installing.
But now i did.
Just cant find the correct chat room.
I wish there were malay-speaking people.
Anyone who have tips, do let me know.
After using it for like 30mins,
I find it irritating.
Many idiots try to start fresh with me.
Its because i told them i was female.
There were many horny fellas.
I chose to disconnect.
I wanna sleep now, then wake up later
to study.
Next timE

|[ el mariachi | 5:49:00 PM ]|

In Bloom

NIRVANA LYRICS - IN BLOOM


(4:14)


Sell the kids for food
Weather changes moods
Spring is here again
Reproductive glands

He's the one
Who likes all the pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he knows not what it mean
Knows not what it mean
And I say
He's the one
Who likes all the pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he knows not what it mean
Knows not what it mean
And I say yeah

We can have some more
Nature is a whore
Bruises on the fruit
Tender age in bloom

|[ el mariachi | 4:33:00 PM ]|

Monday, September 19, 2005

Where's your Discipline?

What a day.
We planned to go to the national library to revise.
Wanted to meet up at 10.
But received an sms from Sat saying he was lazy as it
was raining heavily. I became lazy too.
We forgo the plan and I got hooked on the com.
I was supposed to revise, but till now i am here, online.
I plan to start at six.
Exams on the 21st.
Two more days.
I am so dead.
I just cant put myself to study.
Where is all the discipline i built in NCC?
I cant find it.
Now myself-discipline is at its lowest stage.
The only way to regain it again is by praying.
God is Great.
Well, tomorrow will be the last day to revise.
I am planning to meet up with Sat to discuss some
problems regarding App Mech.


May tomorrow be a better day.

|[ el mariachi | 5:24:00 PM ]|

A treat for everyone.

Playing an online game. And I saw this advertisement. Obviously I clicked on it since it says wallpaper. I thought it was no harm. And the ultimate reason was it was Jessica Alba! Why else would i click? Yeah I know. But can any straight guys resist her? I am just proving a fact that i am straight and i will fall for girls, not guys. I believe that one of the reasons the world is coming to an end is because of homosexuality. The uprising number of gays and lesbians is proving one of the small signs of 'kiamat'(Judgement Day). I have nothing against gays and lesbians but yeah, this is my perception. So dont blame me, I am merely giving my views. Anyway, This is like the prettiest of Jessica Alba. So I thought of sharing it with u guys and lesbians out there. A treat once in a while is not wrong is it? Well just dun go overboard.

|[ el mariachi | 5:04:00 PM ]|

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Happy? not really

Well, Went to the library just now
Went in the morning but still packed.
Why do Singaporeans like to study?
Alright, thats fine.
But guess what, there are more PSLE students.
Kinda irritating.
They are not studying but making noise.
We needed a desk to study so I approached this
3 jokers and sat at their desk of 4.
I started making them laugh.
My idea was, make them laugh and make so
much noise until they were chased off.
But as I talked to them,
I realised one of them was my childhood friend.
Used to play soccer together when i was 11.
I used to stay at where he is staying.
Too bad he didnt recognise me.
Then my friend drag a chair and sat at the desk.
They started studying.
Probably just an act?
Then this guy had a problem in maths.
Primary school maths!
My favourite!
We helped out.
Until soon enough,
they left and my other friend joined us.
We waited 2 hours for this.
We started revising.


But!
We were distracted.
There was this gal,
Should be an undergrad.
she was so sweet
I got reminded of Jessica Alba.
When she left,
we carried on.


But!
We were distracted.
There was this gal,
Sec 4 gal.
She was wearing a yellow shirt.
Her style of dressing was superb.


We then decided to have lunch
before carrying on.
On our way out,
We were distracted.
There was this gal,
She was so pretty.
Age range from 15 to 18.
Then after lunch we went back to the library.
We started studying.


But!
We were distracted.
There was this gal,
and her friend.
Elegance is the word to describe her.


Then came another gal.
and another,
and another.
We couldnt study.
It was like the luckiest day ever.
Sightings of many attractive gals in just 4 hours.
We then declared 18 September 'International Horny Day'

|[ el mariachi | 10:26:00 AM ]|

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Stupid Library, Thanks Mac

Why am i still on my com?
I'm supposed to be studying.


Well, I have nothing much to say right now.
Had my Programming Test just now,
kinda cocked up a bit but managed to solve it eventually.
I am aiming for 90 marks.
Hopefully i can.
I have always had a good record for programming.


My friend and I went to the library yesterday.
We couldn't find seats.
Firstly, there are not enough study tables. And the most dumb thing is,
they stupidly removed all the tables in the 3rd story. Now we cant even sit down
on the floor at the third story. Where else can we study?


We gave up wnd went to CausewayPoint's Macdonalds.
We did studied.
But there were many distractions.


There's this stupid old lady with a hysterical laughter.
It seems that she was laughing at an interval of 3 seconds.
She just can't shut up.


Then the next distraction, gals.
You know what?
It was like the first time after so long seeing many hot gals at one spot.
That was a strong distraction.


I still managed to study, covered the first topic of App Mech.


Then my friend wanted to meet his girlfriend so we left.

|[ el mariachi | 10:29:00 PM ]|

Monday, September 12, 2005

wats on my mind?

whats on my freaking mind?
I tell ya..


1st) I made my decision to move on and get over her.
2nd)I have to finish studying for Applied Mechanics and Electric by this week.
3rd)Build up on my fitness.


hmm..
all the above can be easily done.
The only thing i need is, discipline.
I wont say i dun have, but i lack.
Well these are my main worries.
but there is more to it.
Imagine wooing a girl who likes muscular guys.
How the fuck am i to be muscular in just a few weeks?
Steroid?
Hmm..
Her friend says all her ex have masculine body.
I was wondering, Is he trying to imply i am feminine?
Wat the fuck?
I am born this way.
I cant change the fact that God created me this way.
So if its looks she's after,
Sayonara.
I retreat.
Its not to late i guess.
What i have done for her is not even in the first stage
of what i had done for *meow2*
Well, make up your mind.
Besides that, I admit she is sweet and very lovable.
And to think i have only heard from her friends,
not her.
I hope to get to know her better though.
May God show me the way.

|[ el mariachi | 10:39:00 PM ]|

Sunday, September 11, 2005

i dun feel what i felt

Heve you ever felt that feeling of uneasiness when you see a girl you once liked going out with someone you don't really like? I know its common. But the thing is, i mentioned, the girl i "once" liked.But why is the feeling still here? I would ask myself of i had the answer.


We used to talk on the phone every night.
See each other everyday,
Hear each other's voice,


But now, things change.
You are a distance away from me.
We are going different ways.
We seldom meet.
We dun talk on the phone no more.


I used to send you food whenyouwas hungry.
Give you presents everyday even if it was just a sweet.
Crack my brains to think of what to make for your birthday.
waited for hours just to go home with you,
Spent all my cash just to go out with you.


But now, things change.
You are a distance away from me.
We are going different ways.
I dun get the chance to do all this
We don't even talk often


I cant help but write about you.
I cant forget you.
When i wanna divert my attention on a new person,
Your msg came in.
When i am chatting with a new person,
You came online.


In this few months u were away from me,
I saw many different types of gals,
pretty, cute, sweet, caring, lovable,
But wat you have they dun
You have all the qualities i mentioned above


I know you would be happy if i were to find a new person
The only reason is because i am off your back
But finding a new person means forgetting you
Thats wat i cant do,


Well.. I guess i wanna let you have ur happiness.
I guess things will never happen btw us.
And all that happened, take that it never did.
I am still loving you,

|[ el mariachi | 10:52:00 PM ]|

Saturday, September 10, 2005

birthday cum basketball

Well well.. I went to hanyong's house to celebrate his sister's bdae.
His sister suhui turned 10.
met his dad, ranked Major in the Army, his mom and his brother Hanliang.
Daren and I shared money to buy a spongebob figurine for suhui.
Nothing much happened, just showed off my card magic skills and amazed them.
Or rather, made them laugh.


Then Hanliang wanted to play basketball which we did. We were playing amongst ourselves when i saw a few gals on the other side of the court. Meifeng than realise her cousin was amongst them. We decided to have a friendly match.


All were speaking mandarin, But i didnt lose out. I started shouting in mandarin. Then when they want to shoot, I shouted to distract them. It worked, They laughed. But our team was losing. The only reason is because their team had gals and it was hard to defend as we was afraid we accidentally touch the untouchable. Especially when the girls were very pretty.


I did stupid moves. I even break fall by bouncing the ball, What do you expect, the last time i played was like a year ago. But still, Hanliang said my way of playing was 'classic'. Watever it means i noe its gd.


Afetr the game, we all walked to the MRT and went home.

|[ el mariachi | 11:42:00 PM ]|